JEM

It is a night of super natural guidance. Unfortunately i got too in to my tarot card session that i missed 11:11. I was bummed. I mean a free wish people.

But after my tarot sesh. Well actually ill tell you about the sessoin. So i have my own deck and i used to kinda know the cards. Well i did well enough to not use the handbook so i threw tha out. And now i dont remember any of them cuz its been like a year and a half since i last played wih theM. actually probably longer. Anyways, i was feeling mystic, and the forces were with me ccuz all the same cards kept coming up! So tomorrow im gonna look them up on the net [i have a list of helpful sites ;]] i need to know what the gods are trying to tell me.

After my tarot session, i did some bible dips. If you dont know what bibly dips are, i recomend reading 'running with scissors' by augusten burroughs, thats where i learned about these mystic tools. So what you do is you have a bible [or any book, really] any you hold it closed [or haave someone hold it for you] ask a question, open the book to a random page, and, with your eyes closed you just drop your finger on the page, and see what you pointed at, sometimes it is just the word your finger is on, but sometimes it can bee that line or sentence. This word/line/ sentence will enlighten you on your questioN.

Seriously, go try it.

It does take a bit of decyphering and implying/ imagination to translate the meaning, but it is honestly fulfilling, especially if you take it seriously and put your faith in the dip.

These are the cards i kept getting over and over:

judgement
the high priestess
ace of swords
7 of wands
2 of pentacles
the tower
queen of wands
8 of wands
ace of pentacles

i also prayed.

I have a really creepy story

this happened right after playing with the tarot cards. So i was laying in bed thinking about how witched are controlled by the devil, like salem witches, not hogwarts witches, and i scared myself in to believing the devil was in the room, so i was like, if the devil is in here the smoke detectors light will flash red [because it does that every few minutes; for like a split second it just blinks red] so i looked up at it, and it blinked after like 3 seconds, so i prayed. And after that i looked back up and it didnt blink And i looked at it for like a minute.

Haha i am overly wierd. Superstitious.

Its too late for logic, in the morning ill delete this cuz it is so embarrassing.

I gues i should say im not a very religious person, so thinking about the devil and god arent very common. The last time i was at church was last christmas. Ive just always looked at church as punishment, because i hated it. Our church is all old people, batty women, crazy children, and the most boring pastor in town. [im sorry god, and clint]

ive ranted enough. Its late. Goodnight.