JEM

what a day what a day.

had lessons this morning to make up lessons from last... thursday i think..? yeah 99.99% sure it was make ups for thursday. so yeah didnt actually do much, it was more of a FREEday, and i forgot to fill out my time sheet D: shooooot.

side note: i NEED to stop swearing, i dont even like it! why do i do it!!?!?!

so i hung out with shelby after i got home and showered and ate lasagnia and found out the replacement phone they sent me was broken so they have to send me a replacement phone for my replacement phone. awesome.

so i took shelby to oxbow which started out bad cuz i slipped in mud, and i dont even know why we went for a hike.. doesnt matter, it lasted like 4 minutes. and then we went into the air conditioned building (shelby's idea) saw the animals alot, all good fun. but my favorite was just sitting and talking.

it was just... awesome.

and then i went swimming, which was also awesome. then went home, and then to eden's to see factory girl. i love it :) no matter how many times ive seen it. its just a part of me. andy warhol, edie sedgewick, and "billy" are my idols, and when i day billy i mean bob dylan...

now im home typing away :)

and sometimes i hate when people pack their summer full of awesome shit (that you are not invited to) and then say they dont do anything. wow, thanks, you arent doing anything... then what the heck do you call what i am doing??cuz im not doing half of what you are doing. but thanks for making my life look like a pile of poo.

and while im on that subject, some of my friendships (ill leave them unnamed but im sure you know who you are) have turned to a pile of poo this summer. yeah, awesome... just what i need, fewer friends. and i honestly dont think this one is gonna be the same, not that i want it to be like it was cuz it was fighting once a week. but ugh, this is not what i wanted to happen. and i just dont know what to do and there is already a crap load on my plate. like college, and getting ready for college, and highschool and getting a job for during high school, and getting my life in order, and still trying to be a kid, while im forced to make some pretty adult decisions. so sorry if i seem a little preoccupied, cuz im gonna need a spare plate, cuz mine is over flowing.i dont need added stress right now.

ugh the ups and downs of my blog, ugh life is such a roller coaster, or mine is at least, i dont even know where to begin or what to do, and no im probably not really trying to build this friendship back up (cuz i know how goddam hard you are trying) but i have other things on my plate, as i have already said.. and i dont even know where this is going, and i cannot believe people are going to read this cuz its so bad and embarrassing and a rambling mess and i havent taken an english class since 1st quarter, so no, my grammer isnt up to par. UUUUUGH


D:<

and to add on to this, im trying to plan recreational events and my mom isnt helping when she wont just make a planfor that whole family meet up thing. ugh, one concert and i dont even think it will happen :( :( :( :( :( :( :( uuugh

now i need to got get some medication for ulsers cuz ive got some serious stress issues. (doesnt stress give you ulsers. sorry mitch if you are reading this and ive been spelling everything wrong including ulsers!)

my poor computer :( now my space bar is effed up for god knows what, and then there was the whole pop fiasco last christmas, and i think thats screwed with the cd drive cuz it takes work to open that. ugh i need to go to bed now, i cannot handle this much life at one time.

you can all stop reading my blog now.