i think i have my man-period. im so effing pissed off. i seem to notice how everyone does such stupid shit. and when someone is pissed off, dont try to cheer them up, that only pisses me off more.

a quote from @jakemanitz 's essay about Upton Sinclair's The Jungle: "kindness is free, but we are all looking to get paid for it." nice, right?

in 10 years i am going to look back and be completely embarrassed by my blogs

top three feist songs (in my opinion)

3: my moon, my man
2: 1234
1: mushaboom

but that is only cuz those are the only 3 i know x)

so here is song lines in using for an art project:

(so many, too much music for one night)

Shoes. Lets get some shoes.
Twinkle twinkle little star, how I wonder what you are.
Santa clause is coming to town!

And I told you to be patient and I told you to be fine I told you
And everything is going to the beat and everything is going to the beat
Every time I fell for you I’m permanently black and blue
Blue lips, blue veins, blue, the color of our planet from far, far away
Romantic lights surround Italy
I’ve got a family and I drink lots of tea
Wont you come on over, at the side of my sofa oh wont you come on over
Where do you go with your broken heart in toe, what do you do with the left over you
Two birds on a wire, one tries to fly away, and the other
It’s like forgetting the words to your favorite song
Does your cat have a mustache? Does it remind you of me?
Skeleton you are my friend, but you are made of bone.
Oh Valencia, I swear to the stars ill burn this whole city down
The chase is all you know, and she stopped running months ago
Do you believe in miracles, is love an accident
Birds can fly so high, and they can $#!% on your head
Caroline’s a victim. Caroline’s a victim. Caroline. Is. A. Victim.
Just like raindrops, you feel so good upon my lips
When the water filled every hole, and thousands upon thousands..
White light my time has come all night out on the run from. Black Magic.
I know you haven’t made your mind up yet, but I would never do you wrong.
I’ve known it from the moment that we met, no doubt in my mind where you belong.
a moment, a love, a dream, aloud, a kiss, a cry, our rights, our wrongs,
take only what you need from it, a family of trees wantin’ to be haunted
force field, super shield. Junior high love affair is ok.
All the pretty girls on a saturday night. Let it be, and come to me.
Snails see the benefits, the beauty in every inch.
No, im not ready for big bad step in that direction.
Sleepless long night, that is what my youth was for.
My moon, my man so changeable and such a loveable land to me.
In the meantime I got it hard; second floor living without a yard.




hahaha i forgot about the first few hehe excuse those :)

so i thought id make a harry potter blog, only becuase i was given an assignment to find a subject that i know about to oil paint. so i was thinking, and the things that came to mind were animals, music, and harry potter.. well originally i wanted to do a victorianesque piece with a girl holding a bird in her hand. but i thought about it and realised that i dont really know about that. and then i thought about rabbits, becuae they are my favorite animals. this took me back to the picture of mia wasikowska (sp) who plays alice in the upcoming alice and wonderland movie where she is holding a rabbit, and then i though well maybe she could hold a bird too, and it could be sorta snow white-ish, because when i pictured it in my head, thats what i thought of. and then i set that idea aside and began thinking of harry potter and if i could paint that. but i have no idea what i would paint. i dont have a favorite scene in the series, i mean im partial to the mirror scene in philosophers stone, but thats only cuz i know that is jo's favorite scene. i mean, i guess i would have to pick a scene in the 5-7th books, cuz luna is my favorite character, but the number of scenes she is in is limited, and there arent very many places she goes.. but now that i think about it, a scene of the da would be cool, in the room of requirement! or in the woods before the ministry or in the ministry, with all the orbs, or in battle. but i wouldnt want to do anything to difficult and non realistic, cuz i know fredrickson would want me to stick to realism. i could have the trio in the common room. but that doesnt excite me. i guess im gonna have to go back and do a lot more reading to find a scene that fits. i wouldnt want to do any in the seventh book, cuz... i just would want to do it at hogwarts for some reason. actually i dont know.. all the scenes i remember luna being in would be fun, but challenging, like the weding, with all the people, and DOBBY i want to do a picture with dobby in it!!!!!! arent dobby, luna and harry in the malfoy dungeon all at the same time? but its dark, so that could be hard.. but that could make it REALLY cool. i dont want to do a lot of characters, so doing a hogs head visit is kinda out of the question. man, i wish i was doing more than one. i dont want to draw luna with the lion hat, because explaining that to fred would be ... wierd. i would like it to resemble mary grand pre's style without being a subject she has done. maybe a maybe i wont even do a harry potter painting. or maybe ill do like a victorianesque family portrait of the da..? i dont knowwww..

Its late at night again, which isnt good. I need to stop having late blog sessions, i always write embarrassing things. Had a good discussion with sara about 'the jungle' a book about a city. We have to read itt for our first block great books class.

I need to get my car fixed. It has no heating :[

It is a night of super natural guidance. Unfortunately i got too in to my tarot card session that i missed 11:11. I was bummed. I mean a free wish people.

But after my tarot sesh. Well actually ill tell you about the sessoin. So i have my own deck and i used to kinda know the cards. Well i did well enough to not use the handbook so i threw tha out. And now i dont remember any of them cuz its been like a year and a half since i last played wih theM. actually probably longer. Anyways, i was feeling mystic, and the forces were with me ccuz all the same cards kept coming up! So tomorrow im gonna look them up on the net [i have a list of helpful sites ;]] i need to know what the gods are trying to tell me.

After my tarot session, i did some bible dips. If you dont know what bibly dips are, i recomend reading 'running with scissors' by augusten burroughs, thats where i learned about these mystic tools. So what you do is you have a bible [or any book, really] any you hold it closed [or haave someone hold it for you] ask a question, open the book to a random page, and, with your eyes closed you just drop your finger on the page, and see what you pointed at, sometimes it is just the word your finger is on, but sometimes it can bee that line or sentence. This word/line/ sentence will enlighten you on your questioN.

Seriously, go try it.

It does take a bit of decyphering and implying/ imagination to translate the meaning, but it is honestly fulfilling, especially if you take it seriously and put your faith in the dip.

These are the cards i kept getting over and over:

judgement
the high priestess
ace of swords
7 of wands
2 of pentacles
the tower
queen of wands
8 of wands
ace of pentacles

i also prayed.

I have a really creepy story

this happened right after playing with the tarot cards. So i was laying in bed thinking about how witched are controlled by the devil, like salem witches, not hogwarts witches, and i scared myself in to believing the devil was in the room, so i was like, if the devil is in here the smoke detectors light will flash red [because it does that every few minutes; for like a split second it just blinks red] so i looked up at it, and it blinked after like 3 seconds, so i prayed. And after that i looked back up and it didnt blink And i looked at it for like a minute.

Haha i am overly wierd. Superstitious.

Its too late for logic, in the morning ill delete this cuz it is so embarrassing.

I gues i should say im not a very religious person, so thinking about the devil and god arent very common. The last time i was at church was last christmas. Ive just always looked at church as punishment, because i hated it. Our church is all old people, batty women, crazy children, and the most boring pastor in town. [im sorry god, and clint]

ive ranted enough. Its late. Goodnight.

fantastic mr. fox :3 best movie i have ever seen. i am not kidding. i smiled the whole time! my favorite characters were kristofferson and ash. along with the rabbits just cuz i love rabbits :3 it was just an incredible movie. i honestly loved everything about it! i havent read the book by roald dahl but i am going to and then compair them, but as a miovie is was am absolutely stunning stop motion clay mation movie. and the story and music and characters and humor and how the said 'cuss' in place of swear words, and how they ate, and it was so cute when they walked :D it was beaytiful <3<3 in my top 5 movies of all time. may just be #1. and i know ive only seen it once, but i feel like it is one of those movies where you novice something new and awesome every time you see it. CLASSIC. askdjgbasngmaswofnwem :3

the first pic is the main characters, i love them :) and the second was a musician in the movie, not at all a main character, but his name is petey (it was written on his banjo) he was awesome, he had a really cool bike in 1 scene.


lovelovelovelovelvoelvoevloelvoevloevloved every second of it :) :D :3

fantastic mr fox :3

What's your least favorite Harry Potter book? by EmuBookLover
Philosopher's Stone, because whenever I beg somebody to read the series for the first time, I know they're going to get the impression from the first book that the whole story is childish.


this is like the Q&a that represents my life.

current obsession: mushaboom by feist :) yummy x)

today was an early out. so much snow. brrrrrr. almost crashed my car, but luckily i went right in between the two signs. uuuuuuuuuugh. so much to doooo!

Thanksgiving.

There are so many things on my mind right now, but ill just entertain my mind with this topic.

So it was when the indians and the pilgrims sat down and ate together.

I am interupting to tell you that beyonce is playing. She is my guiltyy pleasure. Put a ring on it single ladies is the song of my life.

And the indians [im sorry native americans, but i prefer to call them indians because it has that air of mystery. But for clarification i am talking about feather indians, not dot indians, and if that doesnt make sense.. Well... Go away]

side note. One thing about my mind is im not sure where i get all the info i store. Heres what i mean. When i am just sketching and all of a suden i get a really good idea, i dont know if i just made it up or if it came from some tv show or something. Like once back in sixth grade, when i had my phase where i watched recess 24/7 [best show ever!] i clearly remember my friends and i trying to come up with a made up word, and i suggested the word that TJ [the protagonist of disney's recess] always said, and i know it totally ruins the story to not know what the word was, but hey, go look it up google it. Im sure someone has asked yahoo questions or answers [what is it called again?] or you will be able to find out from wikipedia.

Im a pretty random person.

My favorite animals are rabbits, because luna lovegoods patronus is a rabbitt. Have you seen the new pics of xeno!? from the deathly hallows movie!? that is NOT how i imagined him [well actually when jk rowling described his hair as 'candyfloss' i was too ignorant to know that candyfloss translated to cotton candy. So i imagined him with stringy hair, so it actually kinda fits!

Oh and my great books teacher talked about jk rowling [well actually my teacher, mrs. Frark, called her j r rowling, but hey, close enough, right?]

i love frark :]

i loved jane eyre too, i liked it.

Im excited for the turn of the screw as well.

I am now listening to fireflies by owl city.

A minute ago i was listening to the format <3

and regina spektor <3 <3 i would see her again in concert any day :D

a fox trot above my head,
a sock hop beneath my bed

[that is my favorite part]

so i am on my way to my aunt and uncle's house. With my parents and sis ter, my brother is coming tommorw. To eat chicken.. Ive been saying that all day! It is TURKEY!!

when i have it on shuffle my ipod always plays 2 songs in a row by the same artist. Is that normal? Should i have it looked at?

I want to watch half blood prince.

I want to be with my friends.

I want black friday to not exist because everytime i think about it i begin to itch *shudder*

i feel like everyone hates america. I am truly sorry on behalf of my country, personally, queens sound like way more fun, and plus, our accents are ugly. I want to speak a romantic language, like italian.

Does anyone else think that german accents sond like [said german person] sounds like he is gurgling blood or something? They just sound scary.

And i can say that because i am mostly german. But really my soul belongs in london with harry potter and kate nash.

Im having a huge stint of being absolutely in love with tegan and sara, which is strange becuse i already love everything about tegan and sara.

Hell. By tegan and sara. Is. So. Good. So is the whole new cd, but particularly that one, red belt, and alligator.

Ive been realising just how much my past influences effect the things i do now,even things as simple as listening to a song and thinking it resembles the ooompa loompa song [i amtalking about the part in hell where they sing "4 ways to remove all the badd that we do..."] it just reminds me of when the oompa loompas form willy wanka and the chocolate fsctory sing about how that girl is a spoild bitch.

And while i am talking about willy wanka, ill tell you one of my pet peeves: when i am talking about charlie and the chocoltae factory and i say".... That part from charlie and the chocolate factory..." and the other person says [in a doofus accent] " the old one or the new one"

ok let me begin, in the 60's or whenever that movie was made, it was named WILLY WoNKA and the chocolate factory!

And the one from 2000-whenever it came out is called XHARLIE and the chocolate factory! 2 diffrent titles!!
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And now before i go eat stew [D:] i would like to apologise for all the bad spelling and gramar in this post. My phone is really slow, so slow that i am styping slow and the newest word i can see is phone... If that makes sense. Ok byeeee

xxx

Did i say that i got accepted to UW-Stout? Yeah :] im really pumped! Im gonna major in multimedia design. But that is subject to change! i think multimedia design is strictly computer based, and i want to do like painting and drawing with computer stuff. Idk, but i think ill go to uw-stout for the first 2 years, and study abroad in ENGLAND OR IRELAND!!! and then possibly transfer to MCAD. im not really sure.

All i know is i am so excited.They separate dorms by dorms by majors so my whole building will be art peoole. It is gonna be SO AWESOME! they even have a creative writing minor, which is EXACTLY what i want :D this is the school for me! And when i visited they had posters up for a showing of half blood prince!! I was sold. College is no longer a stressful thought.

Im just so scared to leave everything i know. Im not comfortable with change, and im a home body. So it is going to be hard. Im gonna miss my friends, but right now i am ok with that cuz we are feuding. God drama is so much fun! But they have a pook, so i can get a lifeguarding job! And this summer ill be making more money at the local pool, cuz im taking wsi [water safety instructor] classes, so that i can teach swimming lessons and make like .75 cents more for every hour i work. Im not actually sure if that is how much money, but i know it is more. At the least there will be a pool @ skool, so ill have one comfort. I dont know.. Blahhh

Ive noticed a few things about myself lately.

1

my taste in music is evolving. this happens every so often. Ill get a bunch of new music listen to some of it, not be satisfied and get a bunch more, and then for a good month or so [though it has been much longer this time] ill be satisfied with my music. And now i am evolving and getting new and better music.

2

my drawings are effected by my mood.

If im sad or frustrated ill draw monster

if im happy ill draw kitties in top hats and bow ties.

And when i am inspired my mind doesnt stop turning, and if i dont pick up a pencil all my new ideas will be gone.

Im done with drama. Its just dumb.

Im going to be myself, im so much more comfortable with myself than i was when i was just a chubby freshman. And yet there are things i keep to mYself.

maybe im just modest, or maybe im ashamed. Either way.. I dont know...

so

Bye.

I hate how society makes me feel like i need to have slept with someone to be normal, and yet movies and media tell us that sex is for soulmates or however you want to put it. I feel like im getting mixed signals here, society.

I dont want to feel obligated to have sex. ughh.

Maybe i am just ranting cuz sara is out on a date with wiley [cayote] and im here with krysta. God, really? It is NEVER going to happen, who am i kidding, ive known that from the beginning that it would never happen. I just guess it never stopped me from trying. The worst part is im in the friend zone. I really dont mind, i love being friends with her, but theres always that thought in the back of my mind.

Hmm.

And then there is shelby. I really want to like her, and i know she is really cool and is amazing at art. Ugh her skill makes me so jealous, it is just so effortless for her. And i wwant to like herm and i know she is really trying to get my attention.

fuuuuck sara and wiley. I dont care how good he smells. i dont care how nice he is.

im suuch a bad person for being a bad friend to her, ive lit my feelings get in the way of our friendship far too often, thats why we fight all the time, more like thats why i get mad at her all the time. The funny thing is, i hate drama, and i start it so much. And i am such a bad person for leading shelby on.. Maybe i am doing it to be in a relationship, but i honestly dont thinnk that is why. i love talking to her, i just hope she isnt changing herself to be what i want. Because i want her just as she is. I just need to spend more time with her, and we really dont talk that often, i wish we talked more, i always feel like she doesnt want to talk. Maybe i cant commit myself to her because There is always that incling of hope that maybe, just maybe sara would give me a chance.

and then there is this whole other side of me that i am completely ashamed of.

But that is just my raging teen sex hormones speaking. Ugh Angst.

one thing i dont like, like i just tweeted it when people say shit like "you might as well just listen to death cab for cutie if you are gonna listen to owl city, dont even waste your time." well first of all they are 2 diffrent things, and of all bands, these 2 are not really that compairable, thats like twilight and harry potter.. and second of all.. owl city is from like 10 miles away, so have some comrodery, he is a fellow minnesotan! so dont be such a bitch.. i mean owl city isnt AMAZING but just like any band they are perfect for just the right mood. you know what i mean? for example: i like to listen to kate nash and lily allen when i am in a happy mood.. and going on that note death cab and owl city dont even fit the same mood, death cab is a relaxed sleppy sort of band sort of a chill kind of music, and owl city is a peppy pop. diffrent. i dont really see how you can compair bands like that. like even lily allen and kate nash they have similar sounds and yet they are so diffrent. idk. i judge bands on weather i like them or not. i mean im not gonna say i dont diss what other people listen to cuz i thikn it is fucknig stupid for that one guy to steal imogen heap's lyrics for his song.. i know it is legal, but give her some credit ass hole. thats a little diffrent though. and maybe i am just biased cuz i like imogen heap and rap is crap.


whatever.

like what you like.

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you




if you havent seen the wedding singer starring adam sandler and drew barrymore, it is the best movie ever. i will sing this to my future wife :3

lately i have been reading his dark materials by philip pullman, and one thing i have always been really interested in is the Dæmons. one thing i have noticed with todays technology is the correlation between the people of lyras world and ours. cell phones are a lot like our Dæmon. we dont go anywhere without them. they change form from time to time, more often in younger people. just thought id point that out. there are a lot of similarities, but diffrences too, like people can touch other peoples cell phones..

im really obsessed with colours. like the science, and like the wierd shit that no one cares about. like how we identify things with colours like how because of stop signs we instinctively read stop in red, and yet it is also the color of romance, which is quite the oposite of stop, if you know what i mean. and how just by walking in to a room painted blue can calm you down, unless it is accented in orange, and in that case it could give you a head ache.. i always think about the primary colours and how there are far more shades of blue than any other colour. you know what i mean? like teal and aqua and blue and navy and midnight blue, sky blue, light blue, dark blue, and indigo, ect. but thay are all considered blue. and yet red is just red, and pink, which compaired to blue would be like a sky blue, you know what im saying? yet pink is considered a completely diffrent colour than red, not an extention of it, like light or sky blue are to blue. and how blue can do crazy things, like if you are painting, and your white just doesnt look white, if you ad just a teeny hint of blue, it looks whiter, and yet if you want to make a shadow on a white shirt, or something, the shadow could be painted in blue. colours are amazing. like back to the red and blue discussion. ok so if you had a colour wheel and you turned it black and white, red and blue would be the same shade of grey, and yet they are so diffrent from each other. and then the discussion gets into secondary colours! orange, made from the 2 other warm colours makes the 3rd warm colour, which leads back to the primary colours- why are there 2 warms, and only 1 cool!? idk. but it baffles me. back to secondaries. so theres green, which is made from a cool and a warm and makes a warm, which makes sense cuz blue is a dominant colour, you know what i mean, cuz if you go back to the grey scale i was talking about, where red and blue are the same shade of grey, well yellow is like one shade of grey away from being white, so it would make sense that the product of that would be a cool. but then why does the mixture of red and blue make a cool colour? cuz they are like the same on the grey scale. so why would it tip to a cool colour? why not warm? itis 50 percent warm. so what is it about blue that makes it better!? and why is it darker, cuz back to the greyscale people, blue and red are equal, and if you mixed those 2 greys, technically you would get the same shade of grey, its just adding more, so why is purple so much darker than red and blue!? colours baffle me.

Head Sculpture Project

Jake Manitz

Artist Statement.

"You are the sum total of all your past experiences."
The inspiration for my 3 piece head project was the primary colors: Red, Yellow, and Blue. What I tried to do was capture each color in a stereotypical way. What do you think of when you think about the color red: love, beauty, hate, rage, maybe even stop? What about yellow: happy, energetic, sunny, joyful, and busy. And blue: calm, cool, oceanic, nautical, and the sky. I tried to take these thoughts and portray them in a modern, contemporary three dimensional collage that encompasses typical teen age behavior, such as the cell phone, and computer mouse for example. I partially painted the heads, leaving the news print show. The paint was a foundation, a way of defining the additives. I did this tie all of the objects on the heads to its color. I left news print to convey a point; it doesn’t matter if you read the news or not, you are affected by what is and has happened around you. And as a second meaning, that plays off of the first: where did our ideas of these colors come from? It comes from our experiences and what happens around us. Without these ides the colors wouldn’t have their meanings. The news print is also a base, because without something to base our thoughts on, these colors wouldn’t portray an emotion or idea. Overall, the project was
• a reflection on today’s young people,
• stereotypes, which are a common occurrence in the life of a teen,
• and color, something I am greatly interested in, along with being far more intricate and in-depth than most people realize.

skeleton song by kate nash

Skeleton you are my friend
But you are made of bone
And you have got no flesh and blood
Running through you to help protect the bone

Skeleton we have been friends for years
And you have seen me through some trials
And tribulations and some tears
But everybody thinks I'm weird
And I should have known
That it wouldn't be long
Until you, you've got me standing in an awkward position
With unwanted attention and a need for explanation
And it's not that I'm letting go of you
But I don't know what to do
Skeleton we are so close
But you have got no body
So why do you insist on wearing clothes
Skeleton when we were young
It was easy
Even though the other kids
They would tease me
But I was only seven I had you
But now I'm twenty-two
And now it's different, when I take you out
And you, you've got me standing in an awkward position
With unwanted attention and a need for explanation
And it's not that I'm letting go of you
But I don't know what to do
'Cause sometimes at night,
I dream of the most terrible things
I take a hammer and I creep out of bed
And I raise it high
And I smash your head
Fibular and tubular
And ribs and cages, too
In fact, while I'm here
I'll smash the whole of you

Smaaaaaaaaaaash !
But Skeleton, you are my friend
And I could never bring your life to an end
Yes Skeleton you are, you are my friend
And I will be there for you until the end
And even though, when I take you out
You've got me, you've got me standing in an awkward position
With unwanted attention and a need for explanation
I could, I could never let you go
And that is all I know
And that is all I know
And that is all I, that is all I know
And that is all I know, know



one of my all time favorite songs.

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Heyyyy guys :D its been a while! So it is monday morning and i am sitting at my counter listening to some good music

1- maybe by ingrid michealson
2- love long distance by gossip
3- walking the dog by fun.

And i already know that 4- will be blame it on the girls by mika.

So this MEA, which i guess doesnt technically stand for anything cuz they changed the name but we stilll call It MEA. Its dumb but i dont care cuz i get out of 3 days of school.

So this MEA i went to MYC which was awesome. So my week was filled with a bunch of awesome acronyms, and i dont even like acronyms.

So myc stands for minnesota youth convention. Which is a churchy thing, which isnt usually my style, but it was ok cuz it was good people watching.

I met Caitlin Klein [sp] krysta's bffl from Roseau. I also met patrick; the psycho. It was all good fun i loved it best mea ever.

Also visited uw-stout. I am going there. It is the college for me. please let me get in ps this is about 8 hours later ;] im at home and i just got done papier mache-ing my head, it is in the oven drying. Oh ps it is a styrofoam head ;] for an art project.

Morning started out bad do to the FCCLA posters, and the sb shizz

So many acronyms. [i hope acronyms is the right word... in99% sure it is....]

anywhoooooo!

Im gonna get my head from the oven, listen to some more tunes, you tube it uuup, catch up on ma showzz, and papier mache my head 1 more time

went to the decemberists concert last night :D it was so awesome!

ill post a set list later, for now my computer is dying!


im running out of time!

i have 2 other blogs besides this one, they are a little more... i dont really know how to explain them without giving them away.. they are more categorized..

so right now i am listening to the new tegan and sara songs :D soooo awesome!:

http://stereogum.com/archives/video/tegan-sara-debut-six-sainthood-songs-at-rifflandia_092311.html#


and i am completely obsessed with this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TpLXQorSQe8


i was going to say something else :I

i forgot :/

wish i had something for you. sorry. homecoming week just ended, it was good. as good as homecoming is. dress up days are just excuses for guys to dress like girls and girls to dress like sluts. later x

is the hogwarta express in gryffindor house, or why is it also scarlet?

leave a comment if you read this.

you dont have to have a blog to leave a comment, you can do it annonymously. just do it.

tell me...

something i dont know.

the worst thing with leaving one group of friends and joining a new one half way through high school is reminiscing. when we talk about elementary school it is ok because everyone was friends back then, but 8th grade.. theres something about that year that my friends are in love with. personally eight grade was a tough year, for a lot of reasons, most of which dealt with my overweightness. but my friends wished their entire life was the 8th grade. it must have been good.

When i think of my birth it is timeless. I dont think of what time i was born or that my mom had a life, you know what i mean? Ive just always imagined that everyone began when i did. Not that im just dumb and self centered. but when you are little it is hard to imagine a world you dont live in. I guess ive imagined that life in black and white was black and white, and the pharoes were gold and walked sideways facing forward. Maybe i am not illustrating my point, but life is something that is so dificult to phathom unless ive seen it for myself. because i imagine things as i see them, like ancient cultures, i imagine them looking like tthey are portrayed in their art like i said before about the egyptians walking around sideways facing forward with golden faces and those wierd wip and whatever thing the sarcophogus picture is holding with his arms crossed. What i am trying to say is... im not really sure. Thats just a little insight into what i think

Thank you sara. At first when i remembered thaat we were gonna go to county seat today i thought you forgot, but you didnt. You just didnt invite me. And then you made excuses that i was busy even though you didnt ask. God no wonder i got mad. I but im sorry sara does everything right so why am i acting like she doesnt? How dumb of me.

In other news i rollerbladed to brittany's with eden [well actually i met eden half way] and we sat around and did nothing. My favorite way to spend time with friends :]

ive been doing a lot of college related stuff, like looking, visiting, applying, looking for scholarships. It is tiring, and stressfull. I just want to get accepted already!!

i have a renewed love for mcad and i reaally need to get back to work on my portfolio!! :D but ugh so much work!

today (yesterday) has been a beautiful day.

i am not sure what it was

maybe it was my extrasexy outfit?

maybe it was the weather?


i went to kelly highet's daycare today with katie for our volunteer project! it was fun :D

and i got a part in the play!

and i apologised to sara.

it was a good day.


woop woop for 100 posts!

ill start off with last monday or so. im not actually sure on the day but ill just say it was last monday.

side note. swine flu is running rampant in our high school.

so monday i am sitting at the lunch table with all my friends, talking about swine flu when sara says she isnt going home even if she does have swine flu because "we are all going to get it anyways"

so im sorry if you want to learn, but dont punish everyone else cuz you are selfish. if i miss school, i have to make up an hour and a half of community servise that i will have to go out and find, go in on my own time to get all the test questions that i missed, catch up on my art assignments, take in an extra assignment for missing class time, which means going to a sprting event to take pictures. and that is everything for 1 day, and the average kid is out for 3-5 days, so times that by 5 and thats what im making up. and i have 2 days to do it. so sorry ifyou want to be selfish and stay in school, but dont get mad when i get mad that you are being selfish! the worst part is she wasnt just talking about being sick, she was sick.

here comes the good part.

so ok so it is about thursday now and we are sitting in 1st hour, when sara gets called down to the office, and returns 5 minutes later, i didnt think much of it until we are now in our next class, and she is called back down.

so at lunch she is talking about getting called down to the office and how rediculous it is that they took her temprature 2 times. it is the schools job to keep the kids healthy and even if you werent sick they better be taking your temp cuz you were sick the whole week, and if you had swine flu and you gave it to some kid who went home and gave it to his grandfather who is getting treatment for cancer, and that grandfather dies, think about that bitch. and dont be so selfish.

this is not my only reason for being mad at sara, but to me this alone is selfish (if you didnt get that already)

this isnt something new, if you are sick and have a high temprature you stay home, this isnt about the swine flu, people have done it for years.


so i started this thing that when i make fun of someone or think something negative about someone i slap my wrist, because i want to stop! and now every time i say anything sara and krysta take it as negative. im not sure exactly who i was talking about but it was about how rude i thought someone was or something, it had nothing to do with looks or appearance, i wasnt judging them, i was complaining about their attitude, something that was not slap worthy, and they thought it was important to not only slap me but tell me how mean i was and how i needed to stop judging people, and then we are sitting at the lunch table and they are judging people left and right. im sorry but if you are gonig to judge people, dont yell at me for trying to better myself. all they do is sit at home looking at other peoples senior pictures and talking about how bad they are.

im so sick of it.

im sick of them ignoring me and eden all summer, and then as soon as eden has something in common with them, they are all buddy buddy again.

i dont care if you judge people, but dont repremand me for judging people if you do.

and go home if you are sick.

oh and by the way, i was sick all weekend.


and the story doesnt end there.

those are just the things that bother me most.

READ MY PREVIOUS POST BEFORE WATCHING!!


I FIGURED IT OUT! IT WAS ON AVATAR!

oh my god. so i just finnished reading Catching Fire a few days ago, and there was this part where these birds screamed like the friends of the tributes. and ever since all i think about is this cartoon (i think it was a cartoon??) that ended withthis little black bird sitting on a branch and when it opened its mouth it screamed. i cannot remember what show it was or if it was on you tube. it might have been on like the grim adventures of billy and mandy..? i dont know and it is really pissing me off!!! it reminded me of jhonen vasques, the invader zim creator. oh my god! does anyone know what i am talking about??!?!?! it is going to drive me mad!

i am pretty sure it was just a really tiny bird withlike a huge ass beak..


uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh this has been haunting my days for a long time.

:D

this blog post is going to be fun.



ok so if you are following me on twitter you will know that i said this:


if i built myself a girlfriend, i would give her the voice of Emily Haines (the lead singer of Metric)



im going to peace together the perfect ~woman

for me

from top to bottom:

hair:

http://images.starpulse.com/Photos/Previews/Alexis-Bledel-gg02.jpg

i am not really partial to any certain colour. this pic just is cute, and i like brown i guess..


skin:

this, like hair doesnt matter. i guess it just depends on what looks good? imnot racist but i am not attracted to african americans. though i think katie leung

http://images.askmen.com/women/celeb_profiles_actress_60/94_katie_leung.jpg

this doesnt really have much to do with her skin colour or anything but she does have nice skin.

eyes:

i do really love asian eyes :D i also really love the look of dark dark tan skin with sky blue eyes, very beautiful. green eyes :DDDDD love love love green eyes *drool*

i dont really mind makeup, but a lot looks really nappy, i dislike it. especially on the eyes.

ears:

.... dont really have an opinion here, but ive always thought the earlobes that connect to your head are wierd, i like hanging ear lobes

http://images.absoluteastronomy.com/images/encyclopediaimages/e/ea/earlobes_free_attached.jpg

haha a cute little drawing of what i mean, i prefer the one on the left.

nose:

i like cute little noses, pierced, with a little stud, always cute.

a few freckles? to die for :3

no loose boogers, please Dx

mouth:

smiley

soft? i dunno? neverbeen kissed Dx

voice:

a bit like evanna lynch when she talks, maybe not so high.

BRITISH ACCENT.

like i said in my tweet, emily haines, though im not sure what she sounds like when she talks.

i want a sweet voice :)

maybe a good singer??

teeth:

i dunno? haha

id like that she had some :)

chin:

not a butt chin!

neck:

no adams apple!

not too long or short, or wide.

arms:

not too muscular. im not too worried about excersize or how skinny she is. that has never really mattered, i have flabby arms, why cant she?

hands:

cute, maybe have a few dried paint marks, always hot :D

maybe good with instruments?

LIKE DRUMS!

perv.

boobs:

haha. i thought id put this here..

ill try not to sound too much like a prude.

i guess i just wouldnt want them big. like too big? like average?

waist:

curvy? haha

butt:

not too disporportionate to her body, but i guess a little extra is never bad. theres a point when it is a bit out of control... sorry if ive insulted anyone D:

hips:

shake em like shakira lawlzzzzzz

legs:

my brother once told me the thing he liked about his old girlfriend was her legs cuz they were muscular, but i guess muscle doesnt really do it for me, but veiny blue legs are.. less appealing

good for dancin

feet:

no prefrance, just not flipper sized

clothes:

laid back, but still put together.

layered.

colourful!

not covered in hollister and american eagle and stupid labels.

patterened and striped.

scarves! (maybe a hogwarts one??)

skinny jeans flowwy tops

those cute little slip on flat shoes.. im not really sure what they are called?


brain:

i konw this is supposed to go near the top but this is going to take a lot of description so im putting it here!

a mix between hermiones smartness and lunas awkward comfort with reality, with a hint of ginny's toughness.

she would love harry potter. but also good classics (which i do read sara anderson. that comment you made about me not reading the classics you like. yeah fuck off cuz ive recomended harry potter to you a zillion times but you are too good for that.)

she would love music, all kinds, and she would be very learned in this subject.

she would be good at photography, because she likes taking pictures for her paintings, because she would also be a painter, realism, on large scales. animals and nature would be her forte.

she would be a teacher, i think. for young and middle aged kids. she would work well with them, and inspire them to love art. she would be in love with her job, and the kids.

she would love to travel, and be alright with taking off for a week to visit italy, spain, france, and london. and her job would allow her to take these trips :)

she would also be very good at foreign languages, they would come naturally to her, along with cooking, and she would be able to cook the flavors of all the languages she could speak.

she would have a small stuttering problem, because she always has to use big words, and they are always at the tip of her tounge.

she wouldnt care about personal space, and always be very close.

she has allergies. cats :/

she likes spring and fall, because the weather is cooler out.

she loves small carrot eating animals.

she laughs a lot :D


and forgive me if i seem shallow, but it is fun to imagine someone so completely compatable with you! it really takes the place of the non existant love life i am living!

The Calculation
One More Time with Feeling
Eet
Machine
Two Birds
Laughing With
Ode to Divorce
Blue Lips
On the Radio
Dance Anthem of the 80s
Bobbin' for Apples
That Time
Apres Moi
Poor Little Rich Boy
Lacrimosa
Man of A Thousand Faces

Encore:
Samson
Us
Hotel Song
Fidelity
Love, You're a Whore





best concert ive been to. she was cute fun, a little nervous, made a few mistakes, but made up for it with her wit charm and humor. she sang every song that i ever loved by her, exceptfolding chair, but it is ok, cuz we listened to her interview and set on the current, which was also awesome, and she sang folding chair, blue lips and laughing with so i heard every song :D the opening band "little joy" was very good their songs all blended together and it was dificult to hear the words over the instrumentals. when she came out i screamed, just like the rest of the crowd, i didnt think i would, but i freaked out. she looked so cute, and was so thankful and.... whats the word im looking for!?... ugh i give up i it is on the tip of my tounge but i dont know. she was just as good a singer live as she is on her cd's. she played the piano, keyboard, and guitar. it was beautiful. it did lag a little in the middle, but she never played anything i hadnt heard, the lag in the middle / end of her show was made up by the ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLY AWESOME encore. it was amazing, she had a light shining on the discball during samson, it was beautiful. and she played US!!! the first song i ever heard of by her, it made me fall in love with her. i was so glad she played it :) after that i didnt think she could play anything better, and then she played hotel song, and fidelity, and i was absolutely in love :3 sosososos amazing. my whole body was tingling. it felt like a dream!

best night ever







:)

freaking best day ever, yesterday!

i FINALY got to go swimming!!!!! i was so pumped, even ii i did have to swim in my boxers. (good) UGH it felt SO AMAZING to swim again :) i really really want to go today, i just hope no one is there.

so my cousin hanna, her parents, and her boyfriend came over for the day yesterday, so eden came over and all 10 of us (including my parents abby, and ike) played a tournament of that bean bag toss game. my dad made like a legit set with like regulated sizes and stuff. yeahand it waspretty fun, we drew numbers out of a hat to determine partners, i was partners with my dad, andwe did pretty good, we played the championship game, but lost,cuz i was sick of playing. it was fun

and then we went on a walk and swam :)

and then we ate mmmmmm it was good!

and then we went on another walk, and swam again! (this time i was smart and went in my swim suit)

and then we went back home, waited for ike to get back, and played an intense game of catch phrase! ike and eden were on my team, hanna abby and luke (hanna's boyfriend) were on the other team. it was fun!

and then me and eden jetted off to kampers' house for a bonfire, the whole group hada very interesting discussion with kampers's mother about words for vagina and the pronunciation of penis.

we bon fired for a bit and then we were off. woah deva vu! we cruised around town.

then i went home and slept ugh what a good day :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

today is the last day of summer, what am i going to do?

so i was uploading my first real video [like a REAL video, with me in it! with my editing skills! (can you really consider it editing when i used windows movie maker?) i am very proud of myself. to be honest my video has no real point other than an introduction of myself in an interesting way, that i am hoping catches some attention, and not bad attention even though i know i used a copyright song (isnt that only bad if i dont give credit to who owns the song? i mean i am giving them publicity!)

ugh i just anotated that whole thing after writing that^ iwrote that an hour ago. annotations are herd work!!! D: exhaustion!!


so i was going to talk about how i was deciding what category to put my video into it gives you a whole list of various things, some of which i dont fall into and others of which i do (in various degrees) but nothing really stuck out as ME!! nothing truly defined this video giving you a little insight on my life! so i was going to blog about how no person fits in a stareotype.

by the way i put my video in the "people & blogs" section. cuz i am a person who blogs!

so i was going to go very in depth on the whole breaking stareotypes and fighting the normalicy that is categorising yourself and your work. but what will i get out of that at 2:30 in the morning. im tired.

i have my cousin, and maybe her new boyfriend coming over tomorrow! so eden is coming and i have no phone so tomorrow will be hectic, so i need sleep! i need to get to bed! publish. goodnight.


edit: i plan to post some blogs exclusively to this blog! stay tuned on that ;)

i just experianced a real life movie moment.

ok so it may be11:54, but i woke up only a good hour or so ago, its saturday, give me a break. i was buttering my toast (is buttering the prober word when in fact i wasnt using butter at all, i was using rhubarb jam) and i hate it when the toast gets cold, so i left the other piece of bread in the toaster to stay warm, and when i pressed the release button, the toast shot up at least a foot out of the toaster. unfortunately no one was home to see it :( my whole family is watching my sister play volleyball. she is a freshman, and she starts on varsity! where are my athletic genes!? oh well, im the artistic one.


so to be honest, i was never up in arms about the whole swine flu thing, but this past week has gotten me a little nervous. so the minnesota state fair had a break out of swine flu among its 4-H people, and one of them has dragged it back to my little town. she spent 3 days doing social things with people i know before she knew she had the swine flu! yesterday i woke up with a wrenching stomach ache that hurt so bad i couldnt even stand up straight. but thanks to cha-cha i learned that symptomes of swine flu dont include stomach aches, so i was fine. until i woke up this morning with a sore throat. a symptom of the swine flu. awesome. but to be honest, im not that scared. im not going to die from it! come on people!


so today is saturday (like i already said) and monday is my last day of summer vacation. im not that sad about it! im actually very excited about it! i dont have that many art courses (like i signed up for) but i am happy with the classes i am taking.

1st quarter:

Anthropology with Mr. Hegerle (oh my god i need to find a picture of this man, which should be easy cuz he is also my sisters volleyball coach, he looks exactly like i imagined dumbledore, only he has very short hair and a very short beard. but he is older, and really smart, and he just walks like dumbledore would!)

Independant Study Advanced Art :)

Community Actions

Publications


2nd quarter:

Great Books :D im excited to read....great books..

Food science D: barf barf barf

independant study advanced art

world of money


3rd quarter:

i.s. adv. art

college prep english

american gov.

web design


4th quarter:

graphic arts 2

pottery 2

research

intro to bizz


my thrid and fourth quarters are especially going to help in the future, world of money, web design, intro to business, those sort of things are going to help if i plan on being a freelance artist.


...i think thats all?


oh wait.


ive been job hunting a lot lately, cuz the pool closed :( so i applied at the local grocery store, and am filling out an app for the movie rental place. i want to apply at the little art shop, but i doubt they are hiring :/ and i can apply at subway, and dominos.. i really wanted a job at theday care place, but they arent hiring rightnow :( but we will see..

working on a really cute little ink and watercolour (ok right there. i spelt color with a u. you know how long ive done that? i can trace that back to a spelling test when i was little. i dont know where i learned that spelling but ive always used it!) project to get myself working on a few other mediums than paint and pencil. well.. that is paint.. but ive been using so much acrylic that i need to branch out. and i also plan to something in pastel but in mot (hahaha typo! im not going to change that cuz i think it is cute :3 it was meant to be im not if you didnt already know) sure what to do!? maybe a landscape? im horrid at landscapes. something cartoony? i was going to d othe vintage pooh bear project in pastel but since it was originally done in ink and watercolour (at least as far as i can tell, but im only guessing) so i need something else that would make sencse in watercolour. maybe like a seascape, or an underwater thing? maybe like a fantasy.. shit the whole time i was talknig about pastels i was imagining watercolours! uuugh. all i can imagine is like a cherryblossom tree. i say like too much X(. im not so great at trees as you may have seen in the 2 paintings i did of silhouettes of harry and the crew. i thought about painting over those.. but what could i do with a black background?

well im going to get back to work on my pooh work (guess whats in this one? A RABBIT go figure.




side note, ive been working out a lot lately, and when i say working out i mean rollerblading. which is still working out, it is just not as much work. but an average of like 3-4 miles a day! thats pretty good! except that my average is more like 4-6!! (the loop around kasson-mantorville is rumored to be 6 miles.. and ive done that almost every day this week or else we just roam around kasson)

if you cant read it it asks if this is the guy that we saw walking around roy wilking auditorium. remember that? we saw him walking around and he was in one of the opening bands. i am 99% sure this is him.

so it has been a while! i got some banging new headphones! :D they are so sexy!just listening to some music, reading other blogs. looking for good quotes. here are a few i like just cuz:


"Color my life with the chaos of trouble" from the song "boy with the arab strap" by belle and sebastian. it was used in (500) days of summer as summers senior quote in her yearbook. thats sort of what i was looknig for, but

one of my all time favorite quotes:

"youre just as sane as i am" ~luna lovegood.



listening to alot of music for quotes. but that requires actually listening and like.. analizing the words for a good quote, you know? and im also looking stuff up.

oh and if you are looking for a good radio station 89.3 the current is awesome. thats where i get alot of my music. i listen to it online all the time.


http://minnesota.publicradio.org/radio/services/the_current/

right now im listening to the jeremy messersmith thing on the current :) i love it. i want a flugelhorn.

i guess life has been pretty mellow lately. not much is really going on. i go back to school in.. a week or so? yeah sept. 8. senior year!! :D i am really excited for college! on tuesday i tour 2 colleges, alexandria tech or something, it has a really nice 2 year art program that is supposed to be really good. and st. cloud state university. im really thinking st. cloud is the place for me. i dunno. it seems comfortable? farmilliar? i guess maybe cuz my brother is going there. and i know people there. they also have a nice art program.


thats just about it! going to work with some new mediums seeing as paint is getting a bit old, and i need a wider range of skills. im thinking pastels. but eh, we will see. i have to bring a few pieces to the alexandria visit. havent decided yet. a little nervous. D:

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bored.


so what are some good shows? what do you like to watch? i need some good suggestions!

im thinking of shows like heroes, gossip girl, something with an actual storyline, not like a reality show like intervention or something. i NNEEED something to watch!!

so any suggestions?

movies i should watch?

anything?

COMMENT!!!

ahh! daily booth! ~ check it out! i love talking to people that i dont really know! (that sounds really bad D:) sometimes i feel like a major creeper, but dailybooth is just a place where you can strike up a convo with someone, and they are happy to talk! at least thats how i feel so far!!


pulled an all nighter, it is 6:30 in the morning, im going for a lap around the town's bike path on my rollerblades :D see you soon.

6 miles of awesomeness? or 6 miles of hell?

(hell)

(with a little bit of awesomeness sprinkeled about)


the number 1 thing about daily booth is the british people <3 scratch that. the culture in general :) loving my choice to join daily booth.


just ate my cracklin oat bran or what have you, off for excersise.

not sure why i showered.. im gonna have to when i get back..

ahhh! 2 more :D

my favorites are the rabbit ones! cuz I LOVE RABBITS!

the owl one...... D: not a bigfan of it! but that is why i am practicing!


the pool closed today :/ sad. and alot of my fellow employees wont be returning :( sad, but whoop whoop for more hours next summer!!!


so i was thinking about other countries and how people dont call things the same thing even in countries thatspeek the same language. and i always hear words like jumper, is that the same thing as like a dress that little girls usually wear? cuz it kinda seems like it could be the same thing as sweatshirt? any explination?

and i want to know some other slang!!!! like just what are some words you use?

examples:

-do you call a toaster a toaster (thing that turns bread into toast haha if you didnt know what i was talknig about hahahaha this amuses me (: hehe)

-movies? cuz i remember that one disney channel movie where they called movies something else? but i think that girl was from africa, even though she was white.. i bet i sound like the BIGGEST LOSER EVER!

-lamp?

-book?

-Poster?

-stuffed animals?

(im just looking around my room...

-coffee maker?

-stove?

-pencil sharpener?

-notebook?

-bulletin board?

-magnets?

culture amazes me so much (mainly britain, ireland, and like all the cool awesome amazing places across the pond!!) i want to go there sooooo bad!

so if you know of any slang terms for ^those and anything else, or just throw out some common words or utencils or something? i dunno.

one thing i have heard about is cuz, i guess cos is commonly used. and mum :) reminds me of ronald weasley talking about molly :) warms my little heart <333333

:) gonna go shower and change to go to the local nature place with some friends, ill daily booth that stuff? (i am obsessed with daily booth, i dont know if im supposed to only take 1 pic a day, but i take like 4 a day, im sure ill settle down once i get used to it, but i just do so much it is hard to narrow it down to 1!!!!!!)


(it is up to you beccychan to fill me in on everything amazing about your culture)

:)
:3
<3

forgive the mess coming up right here



the few people i trusted, that i actually cared about have.. well i have other things i want to waste my time thinking about.

i guess it just sucks. the reason i freaked out was cuz i cared about these people! i dont trust alot of people. i dont tell peolpe things unless i really trust them. i was comfortable with having a small group of friends. after years of trying to be friends with everyone, i found a small group of people id much rather be wih. we are so much alike. but not even some similarities can keep people together. i honestly dont care about being alone this year. i am done with trusting people. the one person i trust is eden. she knows everything about me, and i honestly trust her with everything i own. maybe my problem is i put too much heart into my friendships. i just regret spending all my time chasing people who in the end turned out to only blame me. at least i admitted my faults. i didnt even want them to admit their faults. i just wanted to be included. and what do i get? sarcastic remarks about wanting to know everything. no. thats not what i asked. i just asked to be invited. to feel included. i wasnt. and no, i didnt invite them anywhere. imsorry but you guys are always together. even if you dont think you are doing anything you are at least together. but i guess i dont get invited. well you had to invite eachother? i dont really get it... ugh. this is like a relative died or something. but i am the only one that cares! god! everything i say is just fodder for sarcasm! i care too much. i loved you guys. you were like siblings. except i told you more. is friendship only something deep to me? i dont understand why i am the only one who seems to be effected by this? maybe im just being emotional? maybe im just caring? maybe im just full of myself? but im the one who cared about you guys. dont lie to yourself and say you cared. you didnt. i wish you would have. no one texted me, called, tweeted @me for a fucking week straight. i feel like bianca on 10 things, trying to be chastity's best friend. and in my defence, i did that to see if anyone would text me or call, or care. im done. and im embarrassed that ive spent this long writing about it like a little girl. this wont be published, in fact this will probably be deleted. i feel really fucking stupid, and sad. i could cry. but im gonna go solo this year. i wish eden would come to k-m this year :( ill work on my art more. and ill take some tuesdays and thursdays off to spend with eden. and ill save up to go to the brand new/manchester orchestra and regina spektor concerts by myself. i hope lindsey does go. bah she is probably reading this :P i always forget that someone actually reads this :) hehe, hi :) im looking forward to going, especially if lindsey goes, cuz she is super awesome. ill spend lunch in the art room i think. doing extra work (artwork that is). i know i may be a drama king. but im not going to get involved with that, cuz ill just have eden, and.. come to think of it, we have never gotten in a fight. we have those times where im a dumb ass who doesnt stay in touch, but she forgives me. and i know she trusts me. and she tells me a lot (i dont know if there is anything she doesnt tell me..) :) i take friendship very seriously, but when you do that, you end up with people like eden :) ugh. i know i can do this. ugh im so cheesy :)

i strongly believe in the power of karma. if i looked how i acted, id be a priest.


not that im perfect. mistakes are for everyone.

ok im done being a fool. i have to remember to delete this post.

the first in a series of 6.

not that i have the series planned out.. i just have this one, plus 5 more blank canvases hehe :)

it isnt finished completely, im adding words to the left of the rabbit. i already know what it is going to say, but i have to print something off, and it is almost 3 am, and i am not going to wake anyone in my house up! so i will post that later.

i have already posted this on facebook, so it shouldnt be anything new. just working on painting,cuz it is my weak point. but i am fairly proud of this one, but by the end of my "canvas challenge" im sure this one will be lacking in compairison.

yeah. so i have another long blog planned, its going to bereally fun,i think, so look forward to that, and also 5 more paintings, and this one when it is finished!


on another note, im in a really big fight with sara and krysta.. so i dunno i guess i sorta did this to take my mind off of everything, but... i dunno, i guess ill talk more about that later. :(it sucks though.

so ive been drawing alot lately, and what i have really been working on is bodies, as in full bodies. usually i will draw a head, torso, arms and maybe some leg, but usually i wont fully finish a body, because i like the face too much to ruin it by drawing on a bad pair of hands. but i have been practicing a lot and getting far more comfortable, and better at full bodies. oh and it isnt realism. i am awful at realistic people, they always look like really bad cartoons. so i stick with cartoon-ish people.

i also have been really obsessed with drawing really stareotypical cartoon-ified animals. i will probaboy post a bunch of stuff on deviant art soon. i have so much free time, that i will be able to get out my tablet and work on photoshop. it has been so long since ive photoshopped anything. probably cuz i dont like how any of it comes out.

ill post more later.

so ive been writing a lot lately, in fact i have a few stories in the making, some are just ideas, others i have actually started writing. now im not really sure what im doing with these stories, because i always come up with (what i think are) good ideas for books, but i write them so fast and short that they are almost too short to be short stories. ive been trying to extend the stories ive been writing, and write more, and in more detail, but it seems like the longest it goes is about 10 pages.

so the real reason i am writing this blog is to talk about this story that (i think)is really interesting. so it chronicles this kid who lives his life, but he imagines these crazy things happening, like sharks in the pool. and (what i think) the cool thing about it is it is writen so that you arent told that it is his imagination, it is just written as if it is happening, or as if it is a real occurence. i just found this idea to be so fresh and interesting. it is diffrent from anything ive ever read.

i was just swimming at work when i thought of this idea, from my own imagination. haha so far, what ive written is almost a true story. maybe ill post it.. idk. it isnt very long, only a page, but i feel like i could keep writing this character, and it could reach the length of a book.. i dunno. keeps me busy i guess.

the music i like is about the beat. thats what music is. the words come second to me. i guess it is diffrent for each artist, like lily allen, i love her upbeat tunes, thats why i love her, and her words dont really mean as much as the feel good rythmn. jeremy messersmith, and bob dylan, on the other hand, are 2 artists that really get me with their words. it is very deep, having many meanings, and the music sorta seconds it. it fits the mood that the words portray, and it fits. kate nash, much like lily allen, is about the beat, but it is also about the words, cuz they are so personal, they really show who she is, and so does her music, thats why i like her so much, she is genuine. the decemberists really impress me with the stories they not only tell in a song, but with an album, it is beautifully laced together in a tapestry of beautiful music. death cab for cutie at first got me with the sound, but looking deeper, and listening to the words brings out so much more in their music. regina is another one of those amazing artists that harnesses not only the words, but the rythmn, and beat. what really draws me to music is not the words but the sound, cuz that is primarily what music is. words can take so many other forms, but music takes one, thats why i am initially drawn to the beat, not what the artist is saying. but if i am intrigued, i take a closer look.

so i have a huge list of blogs i really want to do, but am nevre in the mood for, and i want to be in the mood or i will rush it and they will all be bad. but im in a really bad mood right now, so im just gonna vent a little.

so i am told by a lot of people that i hate a lot of people. and yeah that is probably true, but i am a very posotive person. i only hate people for a good reason. and i dont go around on facebook and judge every person who has ever posted anything, cuz i know what it is like to be the one being commented on, and i want good karma on my side, so id much rather dislike people for doing rude things to me than dislike them cuz their senior pictures were cheesy.

and yeah i love harry fucking potter.

so one thing i have always been interested in is my imagination, cuz it is one thing i really pride myself on. i have always been able to imagine things, like if i read a book and it describes something, i always have a vivid picture in my mind of what it looks like. my imagination is the biggest reason i would like to be a fiction writer, because i can bicture things so easly and make it seem real, so i think i would be a really good fiction writer. another thing that a good imagination is useful for is lying. not that i am a frequent liar, but when the situation calls for it, i can whip up a pretty damn good lie and make it seem convincing.

there are also some negatives to my imagination. especially when i am home alone, i freak myself out by thinking of horror movies, and then every sound outside my window is a ninja sneaking in to chop my face off. or when im swimming, and i think of the ocean, i always scare myself by thinking there is a whale coming to eat me. my biggest fear is whales.

i dunno...

i love my imagination, i think it will get me palces in my future, but it is also a nusance.

so i am about towatch push, cuz i like movies like that, but first i just wanna blog about the convo i had at work today with ashley lindsay and derrick.

so first of all i should mention that i am very inexperianced sexually.. and it has always been something that i have been very embarrassed by just because everyone else is not only very sexually active but also very open about it. ever since 9th grade it has sorta been a sore subject, baybe cuz im just not as atractive as other guys (the ones who are sexually active) i dunno.. whatever

so i dont even know how we got on the subject, but it was something about ashley having alot of guys she has made out with, and i think we got on that subject cuzwe were talking about lindsays boyfriend of something.. i dont really remember but i remember both of them saying that they liked the fact that i havent done anything or something along those lines, even though ive always thought that girls liked you to be more experianced..i dont know where i got that idea from but i guess i was wrong, cuz everyone that was a part of the conversation agreed that it is ok.. so i guess what i am trying to say is that i am a little more comfortable with myself and my level of sexual activity, and i will save it until i am in love cuz thats just how i am. and thats one thing they said, they would never do anything with someone unless they liked them.


i dunno, it just made me feel better about myself.

so there has always been this one girl who has always been my friend, but she isnt just a friend, well she is, but she is my best friend. she knows me better than most anyone, and she is just like me. the only problem is i like her as more than a friend. i always have. she is smart, abitious, she knows what she wants in life, and is prepaired, she has awesome taste in books, music, and people, she is friendly, caring, beautiful, awesome,and perfect. she doesnt like me.

ok so a few days ago i tweeted about the fact that if i went to hogwarts i would be starting my life right now! so that got me thinking about what i would do in the wizarding world, and how jobs in the wizarding world are, and how they differ from those in the real world. so i thought i would talk about some of my thoughts on this topic.


hp has been on my mind alot lately haha :)



ok so i thought id talk about what i think would be fun in the wizarding world:

well i know they talk a little about some careers in the books, but the only one that comes to mind is auror, because it is so heavily talked about in the 5th and 6th books. but that doesnt sound interesting in the slightest.

so i am pretty much going to make up some careers.

i think it would be so cool to paint portraits, because ive always loved them in the books, and it would be so cooL!

owning my own shop, like a bookstore with magical and muggle books.

i would love to do something that united the 2 worlds.

enchanted painting would be so awesome that would at least be a hobby!

i would love to do something with animals because they are far cooler than our animals. im just not sure what i would do.

one thing i know i wouldnt do is paly quidditch, cuz i am not a sporty person, and im not the biggest fan of heights.

a few things i missed:

-sirius wasnt even mentioned!

-there wasnt and ministry things, like a visit from percy and scrimgour, not that it was completely needed.

-slughorns facial expressions.

-the burrow was soawesome :3 we saw alot of diffrent things aboutit :3 so awesome!

-the thing in weasley's shoppe that says "i will have order" haha oh umbridge.

-i love this convo between harry and luna:

~luna "it's like walking with a friend"

~harry "well i am your friend, luna"

~luna "oh, thats nice"

:3

-draco always looks so pissed, in every scene. like when eveyone was clapping, he would be just sitting there all angsty. very nice touch

-the ron hermione relationship wasnt supposed to be that obvious. i mean hermione pretty much tells harry she is in love with ron. but that is ok it was a 2 and a half hour movie

-luna's dress was so awesome, not how i pictured it, but FAR better and more luna like that how i imagined it, though i think she was still wearing her raddish earings in that scene, which is such a small detail that it really doesnt even matter.

-ron foaming at the mouth was really scary D:

-i love that you see them kidnap ollivander!

-just the over all balance of the romance, and the flashbacks, and the draco scenes is done really well, nothing really seems to over power anything.

-the music! the entire soundtrack is so good! very diffrent from every other soundtrack, butthat is how they all are. it really tied in with the others though, especially with things like what i said earlier with how the da theme from order of the phoenix is the quidditch theme in half-blood prince. there is alot of vocals on this soundtrack, vocals apart from those found on earlier soundtracks. those had like actual sonds, like the ghosts singing, or the hogwarts choir singing, this is just like backgroung quiet singing.. i dunno it is really hard to explain as i am listening to it.
~the end of "the story begins" is cool :) just like flowy and a few chime sounds a fun little tune.
~"ginny" a diffrent twist on the well known "hedwigs theme"
~"wizard wheezes" very 20/30's very cool! trumpety, fluty,
inall it is epic and loud at points and very emotionally quiet in other parts, id say it doesa very nice job of portraying emotion.



-the movie posters are so incredible, they are definatly the best yet, so artistic, i can tell they got a new graphic designer cuz they are so awesome. these posters probably got me most excited to see the movie.








if i said any of this already i apologise.

the opening scene, with the cameras and dumbledore pulling harry away is really great, i think it really grabs the whole concept of the news and how it is almost like a character throughout the potter books. so it was nice to just have that in there. i didnt really mind them not having the minister thing, cuz i really think they did an awesome job with the whole deatheaters attacking thing. i loved it. it really captures the pandemonium and danger that is happening in the world during the beginning of the sixth book. and plus it was really awesome looking.

the scene at the little diner was nice. it really showed that harry is growing up, and also it shows the bridge between the wizarding world and the muggle world. and plus dumbledores entrance is BEAUTIFUL. very cool and love the devine magic thing :) awesome. brilliant :) i also love the whole of dumbledore in this one. he really pulls him off so much better in this film.

i loved the aparating. it is how i imagined it. short, fast, and crazy. slughorns scene is one that i am not very proud of. i love it, especially when dumby cleans everything up. it just captureed magic in such a cool way :) the thing i didnt like was the slughorn couch entrance. i hated it. he shouldnt have looked and sounded like a transformer. it was a cringe-worthy scene :/

i love how dumbledore mentions dragon's blood!!!!!

i like jim broadbent as slughorn, i just wish he would have had the stache :/ but he does look alot like him, minus the beard.

haha like i said i love the fix scene, especially cuz dumby just flicks his want and everything moves. haha he would be able to do that so easly. :) the cute little chandelier piece under harry's shoe was cute :) just perfect. LOO!

now is a good time to mention that i loved dan in this movie. he captured harry in this one :) so much better than the last few. i love the "you look exactly like your father, except you have your mothers eyes!" thats like the most popular line in the books!!

i loved the whole slug club with the pictures and how he actually says gwenog jones captain of the hollyhead harpies :) just a cute little thingthat im glad they threw in :) im glad they thought about the fans more. REGULUS BLACK!

i love the knitting patterns thing!!! so dumbledore!!!!!!!

and then they get slughorn to go back to school by leaving :) dumby is so cleaver.

just remembered the burrow scene!!! sosososososo weasley-ish!! haaha BEST THINGEVER!!!!! LOVE LOVEL OVE LOVE!!!! just the way they interact and how they are on the stairs! so beautiful and heartwarming.

i love ginny in this movie even if she is a bit awkward. the weasleys are like my fictional family <3 i absolutely LOVE them. i always did love christmas scenes in the books when they visited the burrow :)

i love the scene with the paper on fire, its just fun and it shows us magic in a neat way. i also love the interaction of the trio.

THE SCENE WITH BELLA AND NARCISSA! BEAUTIFUL! when they were going to snapes. they actually used lines from the book, and i love helena bonham carter. she is brilliant. i liked her better in the 5th. she was much better in that one, she was scary and threatening. in the new one she isnt as good, but still good. haha. narcissa is only ok. there are small things i like about her, like her wardrobe. her hair... they really couldnt make it all blond? come on. but she was still good at actin i think. i also love that they included wormtail as snapes servant. and how snape slammedthe door on him. that was so good so glad they did that, it wasnt exactly like the book but it captured the mood. the whole snape explaining himself was a bit boring blah blah blah. maybe ive read it too much, but it was alot like the book so maybe that is why i was bored, because i was so used to it. the unbreakable vow was ok, i expected the effects to be cooler, but im not complaining.

have i ever said that i loove snape, the character and the acting :) it is just so brilliant. one of Jo's smartest creations.

LOVE WEASLEYS WIZARD WEEZES! BEATIFUL! AMAZING! HAEVENLY! I WANT TO GO THERE AND EXPLORE! UGH GOD IT IS SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSSO AMAZING! i love the whole talk about ginny dating dean. just like the book! haha and laverder saying hi! god i hate/love her! i love how it is the only open shoppe on diagon alley. awe :( poor ollivander :( he was like the man that introduced us to magic wands :(

the scene spying on draco in borgin and burkes! i like how they had them on the roof, even if it isnt from the books, it was far more adventurous. atfirst i thougght it was cheesy but it is cool.

ILOVE FENRIR GREYBACK! IT ISNT AT ALL AS I IMAGINED HIM BIT IT IS SO SCARY AND AWESOME! ESPECIALLY ALL OF THE FUR!

the train! i love the new train! and ARNOLD oh my god, he is even cuter than i imagined, but it is alot diffrent from what i imagined. it made me want a pygmy puff!

LUNA :) god i love everything about her! ugh! the quibbler giveaway!

i love the train with ron harry and hermione, it was just like a flashback to the first movie :)

i even liked the whole thing where harry sneaks into dracos compartment with the rock, that wasnt in the books but it was a cool bit of magic, and a bit more believeable than him sneaknig in with his invisibility cloak in the book. i did love it though. and pansy, she isnt as i imagined, she is too nice, but im glad that she, and a few other small characters were castedlike blaise zabini. (sp) i wish they would have made hermione and ron prefects, and harry captain. i mean harry is still captain, it just is never said.

i loved the draco patrificus totalus scene, it is just as i imagined it.

and i didnt mind luna being the one who found him. haha i love her so much. i love the way she found him and saved him! :) she would! i love it! wrackspurts! your head is full of them!

FLITWICK!

i love him even if he is harsher than he was in the books, he is still very comical, and i love the spell he casts over the school grounds.

and i like how snape defends draco. because he would.

the nose fixing! so cool! :) and she did it right! god luna is such an amazing witch!

the great hall, as alwaysis just as i imagined.

and hermione being scared cuz harry is missing, i love that she carries books around! so hermione-ish! and while i am on that subject, i would like to point out the hair! it is so much more like hermione, everything about hermione is more like hermione in this one, it is very comforting :)

and the owl podium, when dumbledore walks up to it, and it like wakes up :) i just loved it, such a nice bit to add.

ilove that everyone is surprised that snape is the defence against the dark arts teacher and slughorn is the potions teacher, and it pans over the students and there are little ones, i love that they are including that in now cuz little kids have always gone there, and jo has always been really good at writing in kids of all ages, not just harrys age. so it is nice that they could do that.

the tom riddle speech is ominus, i loved it. especially the wispering. dumbledore has many sides to his persona in this movie, not just his anger side, i like it.

harry and ron! i love that they are up to schinanigans on their free period! haha they would! god it is perfect! :) and mcgonnagle is always been just as i imagined. i love the "and take weasley with you, he looks far too happy over there"

i love all of the potions scenes, especially when fight over the nice new book :) it is just like them to do that. and hermione and her smartness :) i love that she actually talked about amortensia in the book, it was exactly the same :)

the felix felicis :) haha hermione knows about that too :) and draco is intrigued by it, it is just so perfect! so they all make draft of living death! ahh just like the book! and i love how they dont really go in too deep into the half-blood prince, but they go in deep enough to get an idea. and the using the side of the knife to crush it instead of cutting it. and hermione is all flustered and bushy haired, that scene, with her hair like that, i really hope that was for the fans cuz i loved it, that is how i imagined hermione :) especially when she gets peeved at harry for being better :) i also love the bit wish seamus' cauldron exploding, like it always used to in the first few movies, it was very cute :) and perfect. the mussic is also very good, particularly the potions scene, that one reminded me of umbridges theme.

i cannot verbalise how much i love hermione in this scene! amazing.

ok now to dumbledores office. i love the diary thing :) very good thing to throw it :) especially now with the work with horcruxes.

and harry and dumby's chit chat :) and he asks about hermione :) so cute.

the memories...

they were good, i just never really liked those scenes in the book, they were good, and interesting, and the movies made them all perfect, they were creepy and awesome, i was just never really a fan of them in the first place. though i was always intrigued with his past, especially the whole thing where he isnt even full blooded. its so interesting. alot of other people love that stuff, but im more interested in the kids at hogwarts.

all in all the pensieve scened were cool, (i especially loved the new persieve) but i did groan a bit when they happenedcuz ive read them so much, and i already knew what was gonig to happen.

the cool little thing with the death eaters trying to break in was brilliant. a nice thing to add.

and the whole draco scene with the birds, it is so tragic, and spot on, i love it. too bad i hate draco.

THE QUIDDITCH SCENES! i love the wooden naked stands, very cool, and the petrified ron, and ginny taking action :) all very good. i especially liked the naked stands cuz it destinctifies practices from games. very nice. i also really loved the music, it was if not the exact same, it was very close to the music used for the dumbledores army scenes, it could to some people seem like a copout, but to me it just worked, cuz it sorta signifies the change. i dunno i thought it was nice, and it worked perfectly. lavender :) i love how she roots for ron, and they arent even dating. and CORMAC. far diffrent from what i imagined, but i loved it! the catching the bug thing to show he would be a good keeper! and his obsession with granger! parrallelled to lavenders obsession with ron, god i loved it! so awesome. and hermione helping ron by screwing with cormac :) awesome! and LUNA! WHY WAS SHE THERE!? HAHA I DONT EVEN CARE< IT WAS AWESOME~! so luna like. all the quidditch stuff was fun. and ron talking about it all night, just like inthe book, and cormacs obsession with hermione, to hermione's dismay :)

and them talking about the half-blood prince in front of everyone. that was 1 thing i didnt really like. and i dont remember if ginny was even involved with the half blood prince thing but im glad they had her in there cuz it really worked with the whole harry ginny thing that happens in this movie. v

the hogsmeade scenes were cool, i always love them, i do wish that they would have brought snapes mom in there when hermione talks about doing research on the hbp, but eh, they kept alot of stuff, cant blame them for missing 1 little thing.

i am glad that draco was in the 3 broom sticks, and the ginny dean thing, im glad they kept that in, cuz i honestly didnt think they would. i love that ron hates it too :) and hermione defends them. the slughorn thing was good too, especially when he calls ron... i dont even know wallerby or something. and harry just has to try to schmoose him.

HERMIONE DRUNK! that was so funny and cute, especially when she has the foam on her mouth! cuteness!

the katie bell silver and opel necklace scene was EXACTLY as it should have been :) so perfect, i love the new katie bell.

and they kept liane! awe awe awesome! im so surprised thay didnt just replace her with some already existing character. and the comment mcgonnagle makes about the trio always being involved in the trouble was cute :) god i love her! and the part where snape examines the necklace, i just liked it for some reason. probasbly cuz you dont see alot of snape doing magic, so it was neat to see that. especially cuz he looks at it for about 2 seconds and already knows it was very bad. and harry is quick to blame draco, and snape defending malfoy. snape is such a bully. and i am glad they kept the murauders map inthe movies.

i love the scene with harry and ron talknig about dean and ginny, and ginnys skin, and hermione's skin, and haha it was just so funny and so much like them.

i liked the slug club scene! and... those random twins. that was dumb, but they looked cool. i loved when they talked about hermione's parents being dentists. and ginny comes late, and harry stands up :) i like harry and ginny together. so cute :) and the random hour glass... pointless. the voldemort talk was.. i was uncomfortable haha i dunno why.

QUIDDITCH! loved it! wished they woulda kept the weasley is our king stuff. and i didnt understand the zoom in on rons breakfast. i love the uniforms, and lunas hat is the best thing ive ever layed eyes on, and lavlav is haha so perfect. and the felix slip :) so good! and perfect! and i didnt watch the quidditch scene in theatres.... it always has to be against slytherine, doesnt it! wish luna wouldve been comentating, but i think that wouldve taken away from the action, especially cuz it is so much more fast pased than the books. i love the common room parties, and how harry holds the confundus against hermione, and then shows that he didnt really do it, and the lavender kiss, haha and how hse like latches on to his face, so lavlav :) poor hermione :( i really love the birds, i love that they fit in cute little things from the books like that, it made the movies sososososo much better. and i love the hermione harry interaction on the stairs :) so perfect, and stupid lav lav. and i love how hermione makes the birds attack ron <3 perfect! lovelovelove.

i love harry and how he is in the middle, and ugh the stupid romilda/chosen one/library scene that we have all seen a billion times..


LUNALUNALUNALUNALUNALUNALUNA! i freaking love you! i love her dress and her sleep waling story! and the draco scene that i swear weve seen before... and then the apple is gone, and we go back to the party..

NEVILLE! wish he was in it more!

the whole slug club christmas party scene was beautiful, i love the snape giving mcclaggen detention part :) i love snape. and how he feels humiliated to give harry a message from dumby, and how he walks away when harry asks questions.

drco and snape interact, harry overhears itblah blah blah!

TRAIN TO THE BURROW!

loved the part where lavlav draws on the window! beautiful! and harry is just sittin there distancing himself from it. and then hermione sees it and walks away :( haha loved that too!

i love the talking and tonks (even if her hair is atrocious) she is perfect to play her, and lupin isnt, but i love them. and ginny sits down and arthur walks away, and she feeds harry the food! and it is awkward but ron lightens the mood by sitting between them! awesome!

loved arthurs muggle gadgets! so so so glad that was included! god they kept some A+ things! i love the vanishing cabinet talk. very interesting.

the camera angles from the corn? haha is that corn? idk but i love that the camera shakes. th edeath eaters hiding.

and ginny is about to kiss harry but ties his shoe!

and the death eater attack!!!! :( :( and harry goes after them! i was on edge the whole time :( bella was so crazily perfect! god i love her! ugh i loved the wand fights though! and the deatheaters like black smoke flying i love that. and i love bella. and then the house :( the burrow is started on fire :( i wanted to cry :( and molly's face :( :'( sad :( and then we go to won won and lavlav. excuse me but me and hermione need to go vomit.

ahh another pensieve scene. this one is good! i love the boy that plays teen tom! he reminds me of maggie eisenbise (sp) i dunno something about the face. and they changed the way slughorn messed with the memmory but i loved it, and how it is the same but diffrent!

LITTLE KIDS TAKING POTIONS! and i love how harry talks to slughorn the same as tom talks to him! god it is so perfect. and that doesnt work so he just blames sluggy for telling tom about ... that one type of dark arts.

ahhh and the love potion scene, a good bit of acting on ruperts part. i love how at first they are talking about 2 diffrent things. the only thing i didnt like was the note from romilda. she never sent a note with it. but eh who cares, and slughorn is eager to be the hero when there is no real danger, but as soon as ron is dying he freezes up! but harry comes to the rescue with the bezoar, even though i thought it took harry toolong to get him the bezoar. but then heis ok :)

the hospital scenes were good, especially the lavlav and hermione interaction, and how dumbledore weighs in on the topic, but not before ron powns lavlav by asking for hermione! :)and hermione stays, holding his hand :3 draco kills the lil white bird :( meany!but i lve the progression, with every time draco does it we learn more and more, very nicely done.

lavlavs death stares, very comical!i just dont understand why the gryffindores arent all at the same table... i like the interaction between harry and katie,and how harry takes action by following and fighting draco. i am glad that draco is sad about doing it,but i really love the scene after thebathroom fight where snape heals draco, very cool, wish myrtle was included in draco's crying part at the beginning of that scene. and the roomof requirement scene was a bit awkward, but i still liked it, i spentmost of that scene looking for the diadem, did anyone seeeit, idk but i loved the bird thing, just another progression into the end of the movie showing that the death eaters can break in.

i thought the kiss was awkward and cute, and i loved ginny's line after "that can stay up here too, if you like" and rons "did you and ginny do it then?" haha.

iliked the whole harry being drunk on felix thing like i like his acting, but i am still not sure how i feel about the idea, cuz i dont remember it happening like that, but it was funny none the less. "harry!" "sir!" *in whispers!* so cute. and i love the aragog scene, and dans pincers :) love it! farewell aragog. imsurprised they made that scene so long, and the poofs, cuz they are all drunk, and their discussions. i loved the fish talk, and it being lily's and it poofed the day lily died :( i loved that story. and then harry gives a speech and gets the memory.i imagined memories to look more like they did in past movies more than in this one but i loved the look of the start of a memory, and how it looks like when you drop food coloring in a glass of water, very cool. tom is mega creepy in the scene where he asks about horcruxes.i love how teen tom looks like he could actually be a grown up version of kid tom. love that. i dont understand what is so revealingabout the memory of asking abotu horcruxes, cuz dumbledore already knows about them.

love the snape and dumby scene. those are two great men.

stupid line about harry needing to shave, especially cuz dumby has a 2 foot beard...

buti love the cave scene! brilliance! the entrance isnt as i imagined it, doesnt look like a place to take children on holiday.very epic looking though. the boat was rendom. shouldnt it have been there from the beginning? haha maybe i am wrong! the boat looked cool though! and gambondid a good job of going crazy. its strange to thing that on his last day dumbledore drank a potion and went crazy, came back from it, killed off an army of inferi, returned to hogwarts to findintruders, and then is killed by his friend.

when i first saw the locket online it looked huge and stupid,but inthe movie it was smaller and very cool looking. wish it had a large S on it though.

the inferi hand scaresme every time, and i was prepaired for it, even the first time. i has been a ling while, but i dont remember harry being pulled under, haha maybei just need to reread that part.the fire dumby makes is so epicly awesome.

and then draco is in bed, he is such a creeper. but why are kids still up? isnt it late? i dunno but draco in that suit. he may have looked dapper, but he, and fellow death eaters, are mighty creepy. bellatrix is just so badass! and i love that draco has some redeeming factors, he cant kill albus, so he isnt all bad. i love jus dark mark tattoo. so cool! and i love that draco is only doing it so he can live. i dunno but that whole scene was so amazing! i loved it, i know that bella may have come off sexually to her nefew, but i only took it as... doesnt matter, dumby just died :( so sad :'( and then bellaconjuresthe dark mark and ruins the castle and hagrids hut! what the hell! i loved the harry snape interaction where snape reveals himself to be the half-blood prince, very cool. i like it better in the books cuz in the books, due to hermione's research, we learn that half-blood prince has a double meaning.

i love the part where harry goes to dumbledores dead body, and ginny comforts him! so sweet! and then everyone illuminates their wands, it was very powerfull, i was tingling. beautiful. truly beautiful.

i didnt miss the funeral, cuz it was engraved in my mind very distincly and if they would have ruined it, it wouldve been worse than if they didnt put it in. i liked the phoenixscene, really represented the lament, so it wasnt really necessary to put that in, and the portrait of dumby in his office. it was so perfect.

RAB~regulus arcturus black :) not really on the bad side! i love how hermione gives harry rons blessing for harry and ginny. and then they talk about not coming back! ahh it got me so excited for the next 2 movies! :) :) :)

and the phoenix :)

i love fawkes.

i love the trio.

i love harry potter!