wow, so its been a while, last night i had a track meet and didnt get home until 10, but it was fun, so i dont mind :)

today was wtf... everyone is pissing me off!! (except shelby :3)

side note: YOU DONT GET SWINE FLU FROM EATING HAM/BACON/ANY PIG BYPRODUCTS!!!!!!!!!

so eden is going on a college visit on my birthday. of all the days until may 8, she picks the one that happens to be my birthday!? excuse me for being upset, but i feel like that is a perfectly legit reason! so yeah ill be spending my birthday at shelbys lunch table (if it is ok with them, of course)

oh yeah and krysta freaked on me cuz i didnt want to spend 20 dollars on a ticket to a dance that plays bad music, and is filled with grinding hoezz. sorry, but that doesnt sound like fun to me. so im gonna hang out with my girlfriend :)

prom night:
-pictures at my house
-grand march
-out to eat
-get rid of chelsea
-hang out with shelby
-post prom
-sleep
-go to fricking work >:(

yeah, so i didnt talk to eden during psych cuz i went in like 5 minutes early cuz i forgot i was taking my test, and i remembered 5 minutes before, and i found eden in there taking her test. wow, she couldnt even get me to tell me she was taking it so i could too? i mean it isnt her responsibility, but i mean how hard would it have been to come over and tell me she was going to take it. she could have even sent me a freaking text! wow thanks!

oh yeah, so back to the college visit.. yesterday on the way to the trackmeet eden said that sara told her that i tweeted something mean about the college visit. so yeah sara is going too! and then she invited me, i said no. who wants to visit a college on their birthday!? not I!

yeah wow, what an awesome few days.

so i didnt want to talk to any of them between classes, so instead i stood over by joss, sarah, katie, and adam, and they didnt say a word, or even show that they knew i was there, so yeah.. i have awesome friends.

so with all my friends being so awesome, im not really looking forward to eating out for prom, or any of it really, soo yeah, its just gonna be even more awkward, and dumb. uuugh! teen angst.

...

my cube

ok so my cube was big and blue just like in the middle of the desert, the ladder was leaned up against the side, and the horse was standing on top, the storm was off in the background, and the flowers were underneath the storm.

The Cube

ok so try this, it is really cool:

ok so imagine a desert, just like a plain sandy desert with a like a sky.

ok so in the desert place a cube, it doesnt matter what it looks like how big it is where you put it in the desert, because everyones will be diffrent.

ok now add a ladder, it also doesnt matter the details, just put it where you first imagine it, and how you imagine it.

ok now add a horse, what color, what is it doing?

there is also a storm, so place the storm wherever you imagine it.

there is also some flowers.


ok so now leave a comment with a description of your desert: your cube, ladder, horse, storm, and flowers. if i get like 10 comments of the descriptions of yours, i will explain what they all mean.

today was fun, i guess i dont really have an oponion on the school, it was ok and it was like a maze... ( i dont have an opinion cuz i was too busy talking to shelby :) oh and ike) im tired and i have a track meet tomorrow, i hope james is there to make me laugh :D hehe and then i worh D: uuurrgh! poo. i hate the hubbell house. i quit! (i wish)

today was fun, the track meet was long, but it sorta went by fast. it wasnt cold or boring, it was fun. James made everyone laugh. eden's opinion is he always has to have an audience. haha which is true, but if i was that randomly funny/stupid, i would too. he sang for us too.





so i met sparkle, and logan langley, they were hyped up a little too much for the boring people they turned out to be. i didnt actually meet them, eden just pointed them out to me. i would sit and observe their behavior (boring) trying to figure out why it is my friends are obsessed wit these knuckle draggers.





this week has been soo long! and soo busy. tomorrow is the college visit which should be fun, saturday trackmeet, and..... work >:( sunday is a free day, me and eden will probably study for our chem test!


-oh my god! we can ask anna what is on it! :O tomorrow=awesome.





SHELBY :) i am by far the luckiest boy in all of the world, to land such an amazing/talented/pretty/funny/nice/AWESOME girlfriend :) i never expected to find anyone who would understand me, but i found someone who is just like me :) and she has been here all along! how did i miss her? haha this is why i want this to stay a secret blog, so i dont have to screen my words just cuz i know someone is reading it.



i love the little girl in this picture, i love her line in that commercial "she thinks you're super delicious" it is a classic
:)

i dont know, ill tell all about the visit when i get home tomorrow. its way past my bed time!

ps, i love track bus rides, even when it seems like something is wrong with eden.

my books should be coming soon, the ones i ordered from b&n.





ok so i like fantasy books, like harry potter and the hunger games, and the series i ordered online, and this is why. so i live in the real world every day, i read to relax, so i dont want to hear about someone elses real problems, i have enough of those as it is, so i like to stick with fiction, where i can be taken to a completely diffrent world and forget about this one, if that makes semce.





i dont even have much to talk about, and this one is already getting long.

i spelled out "be my girl" and she said yes :) that is how i asked shelby out. she is my first girlfriend. i dont count taylor riess cuz i just dont. shelby makes me happy :) i am so lucky, she deserves so much more than me! but i am content with her choice :) <- that is me for the past 5 hours :)

im so happy :) i feel infinate! :) times are good. i feel like im dreaming.

im in a relationship.

so im sort of pissing my pants right now.

first my day, then ill tell you why i am wet.

school, home, practice, left early to get fitted for a tux (for prom) ate at panera.

my week is going to be sooo busy, tomorrow is the only day i have any free time and i have to get my check go home eat/do homework, and go to practice. thursday=trackmeet friday umd college visit saturday trackmeet and work, sunday is my day off! woop woop.

ok so tomorrow i am going to ask shelby out !!!! im so nervous that im pissin myself! eeeck! ssso scared! but i really like her and james, holly, chelsea, and audrey all say that she likes me, so tomorrow it might be official? i dont know im so bad @ anything relationship related!

wish we luck!

(why do i write this like someone is reading it, cuz no one is reading this!)

this is going to be a really short blog cuz i just got back from a track meet and i am really tired.

i might have a girlfriend soon? i dont know but james (this really funny freshman who is on the track teem that i manage, and who is friends with shelby) says that she likes me, and that i should ask her out. Chelsea and Holly, 2 other freshman that are also sort of shelbys friends, told me to ask her out too. all 3 of them think i should ask her out.. so i might.

I DONT KNOW HOW TO THOUGH!!!! uggh ive never been so nervous :(

yeah, so i had a track meet, and it was freeezing, and james wasnt running anything, so he just made me laugh instrad, but it was freezing!

yeah the rest of my day was un eventful. i cant wait to get my books!!

sorry i havent been doing my special stuff, i sort of gave up on that!

so i worked again, i hate my job. i am so ready to quit.

i am talking to shelby non stop all the time :)

i sorta told her that i liked her when i didnt mean to! it was bad and awkward! :(

but we passed that. i plan on telling her i like her for realz after prom. i really hope this will be something :) i really like her. and we are too much alike

i dont have much to talk about..

i read some more of my book the hunger games, it is very good. i really like it, i am very impressed, im not even half way and there have already been clif hangers.

i ordered the first 3 books of this series about like greek gods off of barnes and noble dot com. i heard about it fromm 5ag kayley. i think she likes them, so i am giving them a try. i used the last of my christmas gift card on them, so MERRY CHRISTMAS!

not any other news that i can think of.

night!

really fucking pisssed:

why:

1 i fucked up and sorta told shelby i liked her, and got denied
2 my friends dont invite me anywhere, unless i ask why i wasnt invited, which then results in them saying you are coming with next time.
3 i think eden is mad at me
4 when sara posts on twitter and says the stupidest shit that no one one understands.
-this would be ok if it was like an inside joke every once in a while, but it is like every other post! and im sick of it!
5 my piece of shit job, and the lack of a new one!
6 my friends
7 my lack of relationships
8 my slow technology
9 uuugh! im sooo mad! i need sleep, or food

>:(

i havent posted in such a long time. its been a busy few days for me. yesterday was the death cab for cutie concert, it was phenominal, i was so impressed with his singin voice, in my opinion it sounds just as good, if not better, than his recorded voice. i didnt drive, and i only payed a dollar for gas. it was such a good time, i even got a shirt. but i did almost pass out, but at least it was only during the opening band. krysta sara and derrick all went with. everyone had a blast i think. i even got vitamin water out my nose. which was gross. but so funny. i loved every minute of that awesome trip :)

i really feel like there is something there with me and shelby, and ive heard a few people talk about us. james, shelbys "friend" even said he wishes we would date. haha i dont know though! i have not even a single little clue of how shelby feels, i cant tell if she just thinks im cool, and wants to be my friend or really likes me! i just dont know, i am so under experianced! argg!

so i am up to like 7 vitamin water flavors! thats like a record. i think im gonna go to target and get vitamin waters and alos the greek gods book series.

im really into buying books to add to my collection lately. ive always been a library man, but for some reason, maybe it is the fact that im getting older, but i just want to have them and bring them with me and love them :) i love them! i got looking for alaska just to set next to my aboundance of katherines! OMG i think i have $ on my card to buy the books online so i dont have to waste my gas! idk maybe i baught that college book with that money. arg. i havent even read that book. maybe i spent it on alice in wonderland! no i dont think i did!

soo its been a good past few days, minus the mca's of course! well, i think ill draw some more cuz me and shelby are having a draw off, sort of.

holy shizzz. alot is going on lately!



i have so much going on!



mca's

concert

eep i skipped the track meet today :/ and i wont be there tomorrow cuz of the concert :/ im such a bad manager

ok so yesterday was easter, it was sort of the day i didnt want to happen. this is why

so i woke up and had to go to church. i havent been to church since christmas, and easter is the day that the guys made breakfast, so i was sort of expected to work.. i didnt.

right after i ate, me and my sister left. haha

so i went hope watched chowder and flapjack, downloaded music, and read the hunger games. i really like it, it is good. then i had to go to work. im just about ready to quit. i was there for 4 hours, thank god it closed @ 7.

went home, talked to shelby, and watched heroes.

went to bed without blogging.

so its monday morning and we dont have school. its sara's birthday, so ill probably hang out with her. i didnt get her anything :(

tomorrow and wednesday, we have testing. its math, and i suck at math. oh did i say that i need to pass it to graduate? yeah, but its all good cuz death cab concert on wednesday!!! :):):)

im gonna go to erdmans and get some vitamin waters :d yum

the top image is a really awesome image i got from a book about painted cats. it is truly epic. the bottom one is the one i tried to upload in my last post. i should have scanned this pic in but i wasnt home so i used my phone.

So I am on my way home, and I am writing this in a word document. I was at my sisters basket ball tournament all day, it was long, but it wasn’t that bad. I talked to Shelby a lot, and all the girls on her team know, which is bad, because some of them are friends with her.. what if they tell her, and she doesn’t like me!? Then we won’t even be friends any more cuz it would be awkward, but what if she does like me! That would be cool.
So I haven’t really talked to any of my friends lately, at least not during the break. I guess I have a little, but mostly it’s just been me and Shelby, which is good 
Oh and I’m writing this in a word document that is shrunk down to 50% so that my sister can’t read it, but it also makes it really hard to write.
I am listening to Emiliana Torrini- big jumps.
So I listened to a lot of music, and just zoned out during Abby’s games, and talked to the girls between. I also drew during the last game. If I remember, when I transfer this online, ill insert the picture I took of what I drew. I sent it to Shelby, who is a really good artist, definitely better than me.
Before I left, I loaded episodes of heroes, the last 2 episodes ended up not working, but the next 2 did, so it was ok, I just have to go back and read up on what happened. I love that show, I also need to watch yesterday’s episode of Dollhouse, which is another show I like. Oh and I think I’m like 3 episodes behind on grey’s anatomy. And I wish I could watch more Buffy. I watched season 1 of wolverine and the x-men, and I thought it was pretty good. Oh yeah, and then there is my guilty pleasure, gossip girl. Oh yeah and Shelby told me all about flapjack being on cartoon network dot com! I'm going to have to watch that, and chowder. I love cartoon network’s stupid crazy
I am now listening to “Crashin’” by jack’s mannequin.
Tomorrow is Easter, and I freaking have to work! That pisses me off. But at least ill get to see Sara. I have no idea what I’m doing until then, but I might have to go to church. I freaking hate church! I HATE it. Church should not feel like punishment, but to me it does.
I am now listening to Electric Feel, by MGMT. and talking to Shelby about the naked brothers band haha
I’m on my way home, if I didn’t already say that, and we are going out to eat at a really good Chinese restaurant that has a really unsanitary facility. The best way to explain it is “sticky.” Everything is sticky. I even saw a hand print that had been dragged down the side of a lit up poster. It was like the hand print in titanic, when they are doing it in the car. Yeah, you know exactly what I mean.. it was like that, except it wasn’t in steam, it was in some sticky goop.
The ballad of Luna and Neville by the Remus Lupins just ended and now it is and then I dies by the moaning myrtles. Haha I am sooo cool. and this sentence looks like one big red line haha
Something I like: oh Chelsea got her dress (she is my date to prom) and I am getting a white tux with a black tie!
Something I don’t like: inconsiderate children that think that they can say whatever they want! Shut your face, you’ve never worked a day in your life, you spoiled brat!

Haha way to end on a positive note!
And as I close up this post, I am listening to Ben Folds singing Landed.
He can also go on my list of likes, brick is also a good jam  that one gave we the shivers that you get when you hear a really good song.

first thoughts

so ive blogged before, but i need a place to put my thought without screening anything. here i can say anything, and i know my friends arent going to read it, and if they are, i wont know.

so, this is probably not going to be the most exciting entry, in fact it is probably going to be really embarrassing.

-so first off, ive decided to start a collection, im gonna get every flavor of vitamin water. yeah, embarrassing, but yeah, im excited. :)

-so when i was little i went to this day care called project kids, and i met this girl names shelby, who was a few years younger. well, she is now a freshman, and im a junior. we talk alot lately, we have talked in the past but it wasnt as extensively as we have been lately. well, we are alot alike, same style, music, humor, books. yeah, and i really like her, but i dont know how to do anything with girls. i am inexperianced, unfortunately. but i really really like her. if i were a girl, i would be her. (: we talk alot, she sends me pictures :) i send her some too.

-i dont know if she likes me

-i dont know how to tell her i like her (or if i even should)

-im such a freak

-so all of my friends have been freaking out lately, and its just bad, and i hate it. inside our group there is like 4 groups, and i swear all of the groups hate the other groups, haha, but there are a few people who float between 2 or 3 groups, those are the people that are holding our big group together.

+i guess i should say: i had a group of friends that i hung out with from 7th to 10th grade. 10th grade was the year i blossomed, and i mad a ton of friends, a few of them were in this big group, and they asked me to sit with them @ lunch one day. that one day turned into every day until now. and the rest is history.

-ill talk about everyone in the group, i might even draw a diagram or something haha :) because this is probably really confusing

ohhohoh! so back on the shelby subject, yesterday i went to the mall with her :) we didnt buy anything except starbucks, but it was so fun, we just made fun of stuff. i really like her.

today i went to the mall of america (this is a diffrent mall from the one i went to with shelby) and ikea. i got a scabbers plushie !! :) he is awesome! a $5 argile sweatshirt, and 2 books, looking for alaska, because its an amazing book, and i need it in my personal collection, and the hunger games, because ive heard good things about it, so far it has a scrunch faced cat (like crookshanks) whick i like, so its a winner so far.

so today has been an amazing day, not only because i was in an amazing mood, but because i got to ride bike, and that is always a reason to have an amazing day.

so i want to do something cool at the end of my posts, like italktosnakes' word of the day, or hayleyghoover's sexy, unsexy thing. man i love the 5 awesome girls :)

maybe ill put up a picture in each one!

but before i go, im gonna tell a little about myself, so my friends can confinm that this is actually my blog, :) haha.

-so im going to be an artist

-things i love:andy warhol, harry potter (HUGE HUGE HUGE AWESOME FAN) music, bob dylan, ben folds, adele, tegan and sara, kate nash, deathcab (concert next wednesday!!!!!) my friends (i feel that i am a very loyal friend, i do get in fights with them, but i always feel that i have a legitimate reason, even if my words or actions dont reflect that) yo gabba gabba, invader zim, chowder, the marvelous misadventures of flapjack. shelby :)

maybe ill just list off the thing i like of the day.

and a picture :)

today i like scabbers, but not peter pettigrew, just ron's faithful rat, and also the little stuffed rat i got at ikea, that made my day.

i tried to put a picture of the scabbers i get right here.... idk what happened (ps, i hate abreviated talk) haha thats the thing i hate of the day :)