Thanksgiving.

There are so many things on my mind right now, but ill just entertain my mind with this topic.

So it was when the indians and the pilgrims sat down and ate together.

I am interupting to tell you that beyonce is playing. She is my guiltyy pleasure. Put a ring on it single ladies is the song of my life.

And the indians [im sorry native americans, but i prefer to call them indians because it has that air of mystery. But for clarification i am talking about feather indians, not dot indians, and if that doesnt make sense.. Well... Go away]

side note. One thing about my mind is im not sure where i get all the info i store. Heres what i mean. When i am just sketching and all of a suden i get a really good idea, i dont know if i just made it up or if it came from some tv show or something. Like once back in sixth grade, when i had my phase where i watched recess 24/7 [best show ever!] i clearly remember my friends and i trying to come up with a made up word, and i suggested the word that TJ [the protagonist of disney's recess] always said, and i know it totally ruins the story to not know what the word was, but hey, go look it up google it. Im sure someone has asked yahoo questions or answers [what is it called again?] or you will be able to find out from wikipedia.

Im a pretty random person.

My favorite animals are rabbits, because luna lovegoods patronus is a rabbitt. Have you seen the new pics of xeno!? from the deathly hallows movie!? that is NOT how i imagined him [well actually when jk rowling described his hair as 'candyfloss' i was too ignorant to know that candyfloss translated to cotton candy. So i imagined him with stringy hair, so it actually kinda fits!

Oh and my great books teacher talked about jk rowling [well actually my teacher, mrs. Frark, called her j r rowling, but hey, close enough, right?]

i love frark :]

i loved jane eyre too, i liked it.

Im excited for the turn of the screw as well.

I am now listening to fireflies by owl city.

A minute ago i was listening to the format <3

and regina spektor <3 <3 i would see her again in concert any day :D

a fox trot above my head,
a sock hop beneath my bed

[that is my favorite part]

so i am on my way to my aunt and uncle's house. With my parents and sis ter, my brother is coming tommorw. To eat chicken.. Ive been saying that all day! It is TURKEY!!

when i have it on shuffle my ipod always plays 2 songs in a row by the same artist. Is that normal? Should i have it looked at?

I want to watch half blood prince.

I want to be with my friends.

I want black friday to not exist because everytime i think about it i begin to itch *shudder*

i feel like everyone hates america. I am truly sorry on behalf of my country, personally, queens sound like way more fun, and plus, our accents are ugly. I want to speak a romantic language, like italian.

Does anyone else think that german accents sond like [said german person] sounds like he is gurgling blood or something? They just sound scary.

And i can say that because i am mostly german. But really my soul belongs in london with harry potter and kate nash.

Im having a huge stint of being absolutely in love with tegan and sara, which is strange becuse i already love everything about tegan and sara.

Hell. By tegan and sara. Is. So. Good. So is the whole new cd, but particularly that one, red belt, and alligator.

Ive been realising just how much my past influences effect the things i do now,even things as simple as listening to a song and thinking it resembles the ooompa loompa song [i amtalking about the part in hell where they sing "4 ways to remove all the badd that we do..."] it just reminds me of when the oompa loompas form willy wanka and the chocolate fsctory sing about how that girl is a spoild bitch.

And while i am talking about willy wanka, ill tell you one of my pet peeves: when i am talking about charlie and the chocoltae factory and i say".... That part from charlie and the chocolate factory..." and the other person says [in a doofus accent] " the old one or the new one"

ok let me begin, in the 60's or whenever that movie was made, it was named WILLY WoNKA and the chocolate factory!

And the one from 2000-whenever it came out is called XHARLIE and the chocolate factory! 2 diffrent titles!!
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And now before i go eat stew [D:] i would like to apologise for all the bad spelling and gramar in this post. My phone is really slow, so slow that i am styping slow and the newest word i can see is phone... If that makes sense. Ok byeeee

xxx

Did i say that i got accepted to UW-Stout? Yeah :] im really pumped! Im gonna major in multimedia design. But that is subject to change! i think multimedia design is strictly computer based, and i want to do like painting and drawing with computer stuff. Idk, but i think ill go to uw-stout for the first 2 years, and study abroad in ENGLAND OR IRELAND!!! and then possibly transfer to MCAD. im not really sure.

All i know is i am so excited.They separate dorms by dorms by majors so my whole building will be art peoole. It is gonna be SO AWESOME! they even have a creative writing minor, which is EXACTLY what i want :D this is the school for me! And when i visited they had posters up for a showing of half blood prince!! I was sold. College is no longer a stressful thought.

Im just so scared to leave everything i know. Im not comfortable with change, and im a home body. So it is going to be hard. Im gonna miss my friends, but right now i am ok with that cuz we are feuding. God drama is so much fun! But they have a pook, so i can get a lifeguarding job! And this summer ill be making more money at the local pool, cuz im taking wsi [water safety instructor] classes, so that i can teach swimming lessons and make like .75 cents more for every hour i work. Im not actually sure if that is how much money, but i know it is more. At the least there will be a pool @ skool, so ill have one comfort. I dont know.. Blahhh

Ive noticed a few things about myself lately.

1

my taste in music is evolving. this happens every so often. Ill get a bunch of new music listen to some of it, not be satisfied and get a bunch more, and then for a good month or so [though it has been much longer this time] ill be satisfied with my music. And now i am evolving and getting new and better music.

2

my drawings are effected by my mood.

If im sad or frustrated ill draw monster

if im happy ill draw kitties in top hats and bow ties.

And when i am inspired my mind doesnt stop turning, and if i dont pick up a pencil all my new ideas will be gone.

Im done with drama. Its just dumb.

Im going to be myself, im so much more comfortable with myself than i was when i was just a chubby freshman. And yet there are things i keep to mYself.

maybe im just modest, or maybe im ashamed. Either way.. I dont know...

so

Bye.

I hate how society makes me feel like i need to have slept with someone to be normal, and yet movies and media tell us that sex is for soulmates or however you want to put it. I feel like im getting mixed signals here, society.

I dont want to feel obligated to have sex. ughh.

Maybe i am just ranting cuz sara is out on a date with wiley [cayote] and im here with krysta. God, really? It is NEVER going to happen, who am i kidding, ive known that from the beginning that it would never happen. I just guess it never stopped me from trying. The worst part is im in the friend zone. I really dont mind, i love being friends with her, but theres always that thought in the back of my mind.

Hmm.

And then there is shelby. I really want to like her, and i know she is really cool and is amazing at art. Ugh her skill makes me so jealous, it is just so effortless for her. And i wwant to like herm and i know she is really trying to get my attention.

fuuuuck sara and wiley. I dont care how good he smells. i dont care how nice he is.

im suuch a bad person for being a bad friend to her, ive lit my feelings get in the way of our friendship far too often, thats why we fight all the time, more like thats why i get mad at her all the time. The funny thing is, i hate drama, and i start it so much. And i am such a bad person for leading shelby on.. Maybe i am doing it to be in a relationship, but i honestly dont thinnk that is why. i love talking to her, i just hope she isnt changing herself to be what i want. Because i want her just as she is. I just need to spend more time with her, and we really dont talk that often, i wish we talked more, i always feel like she doesnt want to talk. Maybe i cant commit myself to her because There is always that incling of hope that maybe, just maybe sara would give me a chance.

and then there is this whole other side of me that i am completely ashamed of.

But that is just my raging teen sex hormones speaking. Ugh Angst.

one thing i dont like, like i just tweeted it when people say shit like "you might as well just listen to death cab for cutie if you are gonna listen to owl city, dont even waste your time." well first of all they are 2 diffrent things, and of all bands, these 2 are not really that compairable, thats like twilight and harry potter.. and second of all.. owl city is from like 10 miles away, so have some comrodery, he is a fellow minnesotan! so dont be such a bitch.. i mean owl city isnt AMAZING but just like any band they are perfect for just the right mood. you know what i mean? for example: i like to listen to kate nash and lily allen when i am in a happy mood.. and going on that note death cab and owl city dont even fit the same mood, death cab is a relaxed sleppy sort of band sort of a chill kind of music, and owl city is a peppy pop. diffrent. i dont really see how you can compair bands like that. like even lily allen and kate nash they have similar sounds and yet they are so diffrent. idk. i judge bands on weather i like them or not. i mean im not gonna say i dont diss what other people listen to cuz i thikn it is fucknig stupid for that one guy to steal imogen heap's lyrics for his song.. i know it is legal, but give her some credit ass hole. thats a little diffrent though. and maybe i am just biased cuz i like imogen heap and rap is crap.


whatever.

like what you like.

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you




if you havent seen the wedding singer starring adam sandler and drew barrymore, it is the best movie ever. i will sing this to my future wife :3

lately i have been reading his dark materials by philip pullman, and one thing i have always been really interested in is the Dæmons. one thing i have noticed with todays technology is the correlation between the people of lyras world and ours. cell phones are a lot like our Dæmon. we dont go anywhere without them. they change form from time to time, more often in younger people. just thought id point that out. there are a lot of similarities, but diffrences too, like people can touch other peoples cell phones..

im really obsessed with colours. like the science, and like the wierd shit that no one cares about. like how we identify things with colours like how because of stop signs we instinctively read stop in red, and yet it is also the color of romance, which is quite the oposite of stop, if you know what i mean. and how just by walking in to a room painted blue can calm you down, unless it is accented in orange, and in that case it could give you a head ache.. i always think about the primary colours and how there are far more shades of blue than any other colour. you know what i mean? like teal and aqua and blue and navy and midnight blue, sky blue, light blue, dark blue, and indigo, ect. but thay are all considered blue. and yet red is just red, and pink, which compaired to blue would be like a sky blue, you know what im saying? yet pink is considered a completely diffrent colour than red, not an extention of it, like light or sky blue are to blue. and how blue can do crazy things, like if you are painting, and your white just doesnt look white, if you ad just a teeny hint of blue, it looks whiter, and yet if you want to make a shadow on a white shirt, or something, the shadow could be painted in blue. colours are amazing. like back to the red and blue discussion. ok so if you had a colour wheel and you turned it black and white, red and blue would be the same shade of grey, and yet they are so diffrent from each other. and then the discussion gets into secondary colours! orange, made from the 2 other warm colours makes the 3rd warm colour, which leads back to the primary colours- why are there 2 warms, and only 1 cool!? idk. but it baffles me. back to secondaries. so theres green, which is made from a cool and a warm and makes a warm, which makes sense cuz blue is a dominant colour, you know what i mean, cuz if you go back to the grey scale i was talking about, where red and blue are the same shade of grey, well yellow is like one shade of grey away from being white, so it would make sense that the product of that would be a cool. but then why does the mixture of red and blue make a cool colour? cuz they are like the same on the grey scale. so why would it tip to a cool colour? why not warm? itis 50 percent warm. so what is it about blue that makes it better!? and why is it darker, cuz back to the greyscale people, blue and red are equal, and if you mixed those 2 greys, technically you would get the same shade of grey, its just adding more, so why is purple so much darker than red and blue!? colours baffle me.

Head Sculpture Project

Jake Manitz

Artist Statement.

"You are the sum total of all your past experiences."
The inspiration for my 3 piece head project was the primary colors: Red, Yellow, and Blue. What I tried to do was capture each color in a stereotypical way. What do you think of when you think about the color red: love, beauty, hate, rage, maybe even stop? What about yellow: happy, energetic, sunny, joyful, and busy. And blue: calm, cool, oceanic, nautical, and the sky. I tried to take these thoughts and portray them in a modern, contemporary three dimensional collage that encompasses typical teen age behavior, such as the cell phone, and computer mouse for example. I partially painted the heads, leaving the news print show. The paint was a foundation, a way of defining the additives. I did this tie all of the objects on the heads to its color. I left news print to convey a point; it doesn’t matter if you read the news or not, you are affected by what is and has happened around you. And as a second meaning, that plays off of the first: where did our ideas of these colors come from? It comes from our experiences and what happens around us. Without these ides the colors wouldn’t have their meanings. The news print is also a base, because without something to base our thoughts on, these colors wouldn’t portray an emotion or idea. Overall, the project was
• a reflection on today’s young people,
• stereotypes, which are a common occurrence in the life of a teen,
• and color, something I am greatly interested in, along with being far more intricate and in-depth than most people realize.

skeleton song by kate nash

Skeleton you are my friend
But you are made of bone
And you have got no flesh and blood
Running through you to help protect the bone

Skeleton we have been friends for years
And you have seen me through some trials
And tribulations and some tears
But everybody thinks I'm weird
And I should have known
That it wouldn't be long
Until you, you've got me standing in an awkward position
With unwanted attention and a need for explanation
And it's not that I'm letting go of you
But I don't know what to do
Skeleton we are so close
But you have got no body
So why do you insist on wearing clothes
Skeleton when we were young
It was easy
Even though the other kids
They would tease me
But I was only seven I had you
But now I'm twenty-two
And now it's different, when I take you out
And you, you've got me standing in an awkward position
With unwanted attention and a need for explanation
And it's not that I'm letting go of you
But I don't know what to do
'Cause sometimes at night,
I dream of the most terrible things
I take a hammer and I creep out of bed
And I raise it high
And I smash your head
Fibular and tubular
And ribs and cages, too
In fact, while I'm here
I'll smash the whole of you

Smaaaaaaaaaaash !
But Skeleton, you are my friend
And I could never bring your life to an end
Yes Skeleton you are, you are my friend
And I will be there for you until the end
And even though, when I take you out
You've got me, you've got me standing in an awkward position
With unwanted attention and a need for explanation
I could, I could never let you go
And that is all I know
And that is all I know
And that is all I, that is all I know
And that is all I know, know



one of my all time favorite songs.